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I am 21 years old and terrified of dating. Well, to get to the root, I am terrified of men. I did grow up without a father which obviously plays a part. The step father I did have is not behind bars where he should be.
The few men I have encountered and risked going on a date with...it was awful. Not like embarrassing type of awful, but more like traumatizing and painful kind of awful.
It hurts because since I was a child I always dreamt of getting married and going through the wonders of becoming a mother.
I feel like a magnet for bad guys. ("bad" is putting it mildly). Now I unfairly judge every single guy I meet. Though my heart still sings for true love and that family I yearn for...I think I have given up on finding love, on just ever giving a guy a chance to date me and get into a relationship.
Does God truly have someone for me? Is it possible for God to change my heart and mind towards men?
I truly don't want to always be medicated every-time I go on a date just to remain calm and not panic. Nor do I want to rely on drinking as well.
The few men I have encountered and risked going on a date with...it was awful. Not like embarrassing type of awful, but more like traumatizing and painful kind of awful.
It hurts because since I was a child I always dreamt of getting married and going through the wonders of becoming a mother.
I feel like a magnet for bad guys. ("bad" is putting it mildly). Now I unfairly judge every single guy I meet. Though my heart still sings for true love and that family I yearn for...I think I have given up on finding love, on just ever giving a guy a chance to date me and get into a relationship.
Does God truly have someone for me? Is it possible for God to change my heart and mind towards men?
I truly don't want to always be medicated every-time I go on a date just to remain calm and not panic. Nor do I want to rely on drinking as well.