Not anymore, but I used to and it was ruining my life.
I wondered too for a long while does God care. I was agnostic for about 2 decades.
My hardest stumbling block were not current events, but looking for "proof" of God's existence and all kinds of stuff from the Old testament that made me think "is this God some psychopat or what?" I would not even care for the New testament, I decided to be stuck with the Old and debate until it is explained!
After I believed I found proof of His existence in abundance that my eyes were shut for before. He even sent me a dream while I was unbeliever containing specifics from the New testament that I couldnt know or interpret, until I read it as a believer. The dream had also Jesus on the cross in it but I guess it wasnt enough at the time? Because I would not believe.
I also found out that God is no hypocrit (Jesus cant stand hypocrisy). That is about the uttermost thing I like about God. He also submits to the Law. And He repented after the Flood where all life was wiped out. He would not request us to repent if He did not give the example first (regardless that He committed nothing unlawful) because He gave us the best example in everything (zero hypocrisy). His anger is just but He desires the excellent way... He swears not to destroy the living again by flood and instead comes to forgive sins and save all creature from the death by law. We also must longsuffer sin and death like He did...
He made us in His image... if we suffer, He suffers 1000 times more. He has tears and mourns... through the Body - you.
Even as a Christian, in the beginning I was doubting and being swayed in the same way, not at the point to say "God is not good", but I wanted some explanations about certain events. And God kindly informed me that I was judging HIM and searching HIM out for faults.
So He told me once in the middle of my diligent study, if you do not please to find Me acceptable to you AS I AM, then I shall also find you unacceptable to Me. Ouch. That hurt. I hurt and disrespected Him. God is God. I repented.
People judge God without knowing Him. So God also judges them. Would we like to be judged? Why do we judge GOD?
If we do not judge God and our neighbor, we are not judged. God is Go(o)d...
Once I knew by faith 100% that God is good, He opened my eyes to understand the Old testament and see JESUS in it. Soon I said "It is enough" and searched no more. I realized it even wasnt these events that I cared for. It was my only faith that was lacking. If you need reassurance and proof, God will shower you with it, just come to Him in faith.
Hope this gives you some comfort. Sorry for the long post, I just can identify.
Israel doubted all the time in spite of incredible miracles they witnessed, and yet He favored them. Doubting Thomas was one of chosen apostles and Jesus LOVED him. Love you!