I miss my grandmother so much. She raised me to know God/Jesus. She was my backbone, The only person here on earth who accepted me and understood. No one understands me, I feel like I'm invisible. I feel empty. I feel lost. Life has been hard for me lately. I almost can't take it anymore. God knows I've been strong and I pray until I'm blue in the face. I have no where to go; spiritually speaking, I feel like I have no purpose. My mind feels like it's going crazy. I have all these unwanted and perverse imaginations that I do not want there. The only person keeping me alive is Jesus; I am holding on to that little hope. No one understands how much pain I'm harboring. I can't even pretend to me happy anymore, it's impossible. All I want is peace, a peaceful mind, but even that seems hard to receive because I'm always worried or struggling with something. I'm even failing school because of my worries and my confusions. I'm literally lost. I have never felt so lost and alone. I feel like there just clouds all over me and I'm seeking for the light. I need prayer. I need strength, I need a miracle. I do not want anyone feeling the way I do. NOT ANYONE. Jesus please save me.
Ps. My Grandmother passed in March of this year. :/
Ps. My Grandmother passed in March of this year. :/