I've done a lot of bad things in my short life so far, I've pushed away the majority of my family members due to the substance abuse, and getting in trouble with the law. I hit rock bottom, I realized the only way out was having God in my life day to day, then making small but practical steps, starting to do more productive things, feeding my mind the appropriate content... Obviously it's still a work in progress, I haven't smoked any drug for about 6 months, but I still smoke cigarettes and still have a drink every now and again, I hope to give up these too one day. I don't stress my mother out with court cases anymore, the only constant person in my life through thick and thin, while everyone else left, maybe it was right of them to leave. I started attending church, getting some positive church friend influences in my life. I read the bible, just small but consistent steps you know? I regret all my actions and I'm sorry for them, but logically knowing that I just can't go back and change anything. I'm thankful for my life today, I feel as if that even when I was at my most darkest moments, it was like the Lord was just getting me through, he didn't let me get broken beyond repair. I think it's testament to his love and his patience and I wont test his patience anymore. I'm grateful that I was in church when I was real little.
