A year ago, a man walked into my life and I wasn't looking for anyone at the point. THis man is saved, walks GOds path and bears the fruit. I prayed and prayed before entering a relationship with him to make sure this was from God. I felt peace like no other and within months we were planning a wedding. We both felt, or I guess I should speak for myself only, but I felt this was the man GOd had for me, I had no doubts whatsoever. We were both in the process of finding a church together and we both were waiting till marriage to have sex, I mean you name it, we did it. We prayed together, but my problem was, I was previsoulsy married and brought alof of my issues and trust issues into this relationship. WHen we broke up, I knew my duty and desire was to spend the time alone as a single woman and prepare myself to be the best wife and mother that GOd wants me to be.So for 9 months I have actively everyday growing and working on any past issues and helping others, and I am very happy with my walk with Christ. I ask God everyday what I can do to grow or to be an example to others or to guide where he wants me to go. I have felt like God wants me to still pray for this man, but truth be told, I always felt like he was going to date someone else. Last night I found out that he is pursieing someone and Im not mad. A few weeks ago, I was gtting aggravated, impatient and I asked God, should I reach out to him for some form of closure. I really felt GOd tell me to wait, that He is still working. I mean God could be working still in me, in the situation in the guy, I mean I don't know, only GOd does. So I always thought then when I find out hes moved on, maybe then Ill be released. I really don't think im holding on, I want to have that freedom where Im not sad or missing someone. Never in my life did I ever feel like someone was perfect for me. We have the same beliefs, morals, values, was raised the same way, same birthday and year, lol. I thought that maybe this is something he needs to go thru, I thought maybe this is a lesson for me. I don't know, I know you guys don't know, but sometimes I feel like I over-think and its nice just to hear some advice that gives me hope and encouragement. I don't have a lot of people in my life, but sometimes I also wonder if im doing something wrong. I don't think personally there is anything I can change right now with my walk with Christ, it can always get better, but its pretty close! Im actively trying to listen and obey, but just feel like I have my one hand handcuffed to someone and its so hard.