I dont know the answer to this question. I asked my husband and he thinks you would go to hell if a Christian committed suicide because once you are dead, you can no longer ask for forgiveness. I prefer to leave the decisions and judgements to God. If he wants me to know the answer, then I will know it.
As someone who has been very depressed, panicky, and fearful for the last week, suicide, especially those first few days, looked awfully appealing. To go to Heaven and not have the pain of my earthly body anymore, to not have the depression and anxiety and fear, to go to Heaven and be with Jesus and God, who WOULDNT want that?
But somehow, I dont think that all those martyrs who had to go through sickness and illness and pain and suffered through it to the end with Jesus's name on their lips as they died would be as understanding of a sucidal decision as us here on earth who can rationalize and justify all we want.
No one can tell me that their depression, or fear, or panic is worse then anyone else. I have been there. I am in the middle of it NOW! But suicide can not possibly be the right answer. No one can tell me that people who have pain racked bodies have it harder or easier then someone who has an emotional or mental illness. A cancer victim racked with pain, or a person with a mental illness racked with depression, neither is better or worse in God's eyes.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And even though everyone in the world can say yes you go to hell, or no you dont go to hell, the only one who truly, truly knows the truth is God. God is love, but God is also cruel. His cruelty is refining. He is a jealous God, and a just God and he can not stand for sin to be in his presence. Do you REALLY want to test him on this when there is no way to take it back?
Debbie
