Should you find an accountability partner or mentor to help you break free of porn? Absolutely YES!
Did your friend get badly hurt because of you? Absolutely NO!
"so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, andsends rain on the just and on the unjust." Matt 5. 45
Do not read into God the thoughts or his ways, in a human way.
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isa. 55:8-9
We simply cannot understand why these things happen, but God IS in control.
“For who has known the mind of the Lord,
or who has been his counselor?” Romans 11:35
The answer for you is to have a relationship with Jesus Christ. Then you will have the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you. You will have the mind of Christ. This does not mean you will be God or know everything, but it does mean that you are walking with God, and he is transforming you into his image.
“For who has understood the mind of the Lord so as to instruct him?” But we have the mind of Christ." 1 Cor. 2:16
I would suggest you memorize this passage, and say it to yourself when you are tempted.
"I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. [SUP]2 [/SUP]Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:1-2
Praying for you to break free of this devastating sin, and for you to know Jesus.