I don't know what to do.

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Well I guess to start with I will say that I was brought up in a Christian home. I went to church. I was saved when I was young. Then I entered my teens and lost my way. I was without god for many years. Then I found my way into weed, meditation, and psychedelic drugs. After using those things I can honestly say that they brought me back to god. And with that belief, I continued to use those things. Until about 3 hours ago I got a smack in the face that all those things are nothing but evil and satans way of leading me away from god. Now I am 100% lost with myself and my faith. I feel like these last few years when I thought I was becoming closer to god than I ever have been has been a lie and I don't k ow how to handle it. And being that I thought I was on the right path I have had many talks with friends and family about my beliefs and now that I feel like I have been wrong this whole time I feel like I have wronged so many people by giving them false ideas. Bit I didn't know they were false. I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt and I feel like god is incredibly disappointed in me. I just don't know where to go from here. Like I said I thought I was on the right path and now that I feel like I wasn't I don't know which path to take.
 
You didn't Surprise God with what you've done and He knew you'd come to this point. He's not shocked nor surprised at all. We imagine that He doesn't know us until we finally get to know Him better but no - that's not true - He knew what you would do with your life before the foundation of the world.

But now that you know - He wants to give you Hope and a true Relationship with Him.

Pick up your Bible and make it your best earthly companion. Start with John and just read and read until you feel some better and know that He forgives you and because He knew you'd do all that you've done -- He knows how you're feeling today and is ready to start a beautiful close One-on-one with you. The Best Friend you can ever have is just a conversation away and just start talking to Him. Some people call it praying - but I prefer "talking to Him".

Don't feel lost. Just ask Him to give you forgiveness and He will. Just ask Him to teach you about Himself, through His Word the Bible and He will. Just ask Him to help you to Trust Him and He will.

Don't look back on your life because when He forgives He throws your past into the sea of forgetfulness.

It's good to have a solid/sound Church to fellowship at and make good friends - and being here helps too, as long as it's not the only fellowship you have and not the place to learn the Bible. That needs to be with just you and Him and a solid pastor/teacher near where you live.

You need prayer and that's what we can give you here. Lots of great prayer warriors.

I'm praying that the condemnation that's plaguing you will leave and be replaced with the knowledge of His Presence in your life and His great love and mercy. Like the father of the prodigal son. He loves you and He really is all that we'll ever NEED, once we get a hold onto Who He is and What He thinks of us, through His Word.

The LORD Bless you, Friend!
 
Well, i can understand where you're coming from, but perhaps you're viewing this the wrong way. It may be better to thank God for bringing you out of the lies and focus on it that way. God delivered you, man. He's not looking at you disappointedly, He's happy that you finally heard His real call. While you're down here regretting, the angels in heaven are rejoicing.
We all come from backgrounds of believing in the wrong things. Some may have come from worse than others, but we all grow and change as we mature and learn.
But now you have the chance to be out of satans grasp, to be away from the lies and find a truth that is rooted in the bible. Now is the time to thank God.
And you can't change what you've done. Even with what you taught others. That's in the past. Now is your time to leave the past behind and look forward to your new and better walk with God. Because no matter what you taught people, they still had a choice. If they believed you, that's on them.
So bust out your bible, start learning Gods truth and thank Him for saving you out of the lies you lived in for so long. And move forward.
 
To Both of you: Your words just hit me with something special. Thank you so much. I am going home from work now. I'm opening my bible and I'm going to start reading john. Thank you so much for caring enough to reply. Thank you so much you have no idea how much I needed someone to say something to me right now.
 
Your words just hit me with something special. Thank you so much. I am going home from work now. I'm opening my bible and I'm going to start reading john. Thank you so much for caring enough to reply. Thank you.

I don't have all the answers, but if you have any or need any help feel free to message me.
 
I hear angels singing

Luke 15:10 Likewise, I say unto you, there is JOY in the Presence of the Angels of GOD over one sinner that repents. :)


[video=youtube;G_eXpjYqmgo]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_eXpjYqmgo&feature=youtu.be[/video]​
 
interestingly enough I struck up a conversation with a dude a few days ago that tried to tell me the same thing. about how drugs free your mind, enhance your life, etc.. of coarse he was stoned off his rear when he was telling me this. It just broke my heart to see someone so lost. I thank God thru Christ that you got delivered from evil lies that drugs tell.
 
Well I guess to start with I will say that I was brought up in a Christian home. I went to church. I was saved when I was young. Then I entered my teens and lost my way. I was without god for many years. Then I found my way into weed, meditation, and psychedelic drugs. After using those things I can honestly say that they brought me back to god. And with that belief, I continued to use those things. Until about 3 hours ago I got a smack in the face that all those things are nothing but evil and satans way of leading me away from god. Now I am 100% lost with myself and my faith. I feel like these last few years when I thought I was becoming closer to god than I ever have been has been a lie and I don't k ow how to handle it. And being that I thought I was on the right path I have had many talks with friends and family about my beliefs and now that I feel like I have been wrong this whole time I feel like I have wronged so many people by giving them false ideas. Bit I didn't know they were false. I feel an overwhelming sense of guilt and I feel like god is incredibly disappointed in me. I just don't know where to go from here. Like I said I thought I was on the right path and now that I feel like I wasn't I don't know which path to take.

You say the drugs brought you back to God but you continued to use them. You cannot have drugs and God too. He does not tolerate us having two gods in our life. You naturally feel lost because the relationship with you and God was not on His terms but yours. Give your life to Him completely and ask Him to help you with the addictions. He wants to do that for you and have a relationship with you that is free of anything that would hinder it.
 
There's some wise words I'm reading here my brother.....you are feeling conviction.....we all have....more than most will admit......it shows your heart is changing....just like God says He would....
you are getting wisdom through this.......and for this you should celebrate....reach out to
a strong man of God....find his wisdom.......as long as you ask God for the knowledge....He will
give you more...your on your way....stay as close to the path as you can....peace and joy is yours for the taking......peace....jo
 
Until about 3 hours ago I got a smack in the face that all those things are nothing but evil and satans way of leading me away from god. Now I am 100% lost with myself and my faith. I feel like these last few years when I thought I was becoming closer to god than I ever have been has been a lie and I don't k ow how to handle it...........

Do some really feel that a lecture was needed? He goes on to express a deep condemnation that plagued him and became desperate - thinking God wouldn't take him back. He knew when he wrote this that all that he did was wrong and expressed that clearly enough ... being buried alive by condemnation - not seeing a way back to the true God and thinking God wouldn't take him back.

How much more condemnation does he need from some that don't read?
 
Sassy, I'm sorry I came on so hard. It's bothered me since I hit send. I'm just not feeling too well today but that's not an excuse.

Before I came on here, I was looking for another video song for our friend of the OP because I know that edifying music is what gave me the super-rocket blast Upward when I first got saved and to this day.

Also, I'd like to explain that I know a bunch of folks from back in the 60's that were looking for GOD and believed the lie that drugs would help them find Him and that was a strong and powerful lie back then .... BUT - it wasn't the drugs that helped them -- but a whole bunch of those "searching for God" people Did finally find Him and became The Jesus People that turned into a Revival in approx the early 70's. Again - it wasn't the drugs that 'helped' but that they were Looking for God in all the wrong places - YET 'they were looking for God'.
I was one of them. Only did the drug scene for a year - but I know what I was looking for and God slam dunked me right into a "trip to Hell" after that year from a drug that someone gave me - and HE showed me in that 'trip' - that it was ALL from Satan ... so I can relate to this new friend to CC here --- I was only 16 when this happened but had sought for God since I was a kid and knew it was JESUS but there were so many messages back then and I was influenced by my then bf and someone else that was very close to me that got me on the wrong path ... pantheism, cosmic-consciousness, Spinoza, the Beatles, Ravi Shankar, etc etc but Jesus was still there in my mind since I was a toddler --- but He had to show me what my after-life would be if I continued on that track .... so I became a Jesus Freak but still hadn't heard the Gospel until I was 23. He was a tangible Christ to me since 3 yrs old BUT - I was looking for love in all the wrong places because my childhood and teen yrs had no love in it at all ... but He was there through it all - honestly - and I believe it was because He KNEW that once I was beaten down enough - He'd allow me to just happen to be going through TV channels alone at home and stumble upon a man explaining Salvation and being FORGIVEN in the last 5 minutes of his program and asking if we wanted to - that we could pray a prayer similar to his and I did 20 yrs after I first knew that He was God, at 23 y.o..

I could name some of the people that came out of that drug culture back then - but I think most of the people here know their names but there hasn't been a Revival of that size in the U.S. since .... no credit to the drugs - but that a mess of folks were seeking for God in the midst of a bunch of nonsense like the New Age and Timothy Leary and nonsense like that.

I'm inclined to believe that something like that is beginning to happen globally but we don't see it all but we will, one day - as persecution begins to show more besides just what we see overseas from us.

The cosmic-consciousness crowd are still around but they aren't preaching "love & peace" in the same way they did back in our hippie days --- their "love & peace" is now coming from the mentality like Spangler's .... to purge the earth of us that won't go-along-to-get-along with a global 'religion' of tolerance of everything and anything that they deem is normal for "human animals" or "seeded by aliens" creatures.

I may have gotten away from their teachings when I was 16 but I haven't gotten away from keeping up on what they teach.

God Bless you and again, I'm sorry for my sharpness! No excuse for that, my friend.

Gonna try later tonight to find or direct our new member to some good music.

Praying for him for STRENGTH over what has held him in bondage for this many years. GOD is Able to deliver over-night, as He did with me - but we still pray that he will find Freedom in Jesus Alone asap --- Amen and Alleluia to The Lamb of God that took the sins of the world upon Himself. May He be Glorified in this place and in our hearts, forever and ever and ever, Amen!


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hi lostinanevilworld,
feeling all the shame and guilt is sooo hard. i'm sorry to hear life's so tough for you. i just want to incourage you. [video=youtube_share;IJ8pu_OHz2Y]http://youtu.be/IJ8pu_OHz2Y[/video]

i hope you will always find hope, truth and trust right by His Feet and in full acceptance of who you are and who you will become through His love and mercy and healing
 
you have made your first step by humbling yourself and seeing what you have done. Prayer is the best way to start and being around positive people who is willing to listen and pray with you. God knows our hearts and know when we are truly trying to get on the right path. I will keep you in thoughts and prayers friend ,may God bless you
 
Hi Lost you sorta remind me of my youth leader I had, He grew up in a Christian home and slowly walked away from God and started taking drugs and stuff and one day he got invited to a youth camp when he was 17 by one of his friends. He have his heart to God but was still using drugs and was afraid to loose some of his friends he had. It took awhile for him to give up on his friends and started hanging with a friend who took him to camp. He then later wanted to speak to the teen and Knew it was his calling... anyways God Loves you bro and be praying that you will know Him for he has great plans for you :)
 
I sense that you are being led by the Holy Spirit even to write this. My prayer is that He will bring you into a relationship with Christ such as you might never have had before, and put His joy deep in your spirit.

Blessings.

Joi