I got saved and baptized in the church at the age of 9. Mom and Dad got separated at the age of 15, went to live with my dad where him and my uncle mentored me in a bad way made me me drink and smoke cigarettes at a young age.Didnt go to church at these times but got hooked on internet porn,cigarettes and drinking. As i grew up got in to a relationship where i had alot of sex and done alot of lien. After all this back to the present time i have seen what i have done wrong in my life and is trying to get back with jesus after all the sins i have done and their was alot i didnt mentioni changed for the worst.Now that im trying to seek him i here most preachers on youtube or on google saying you can lose salvation and jesus ill shut the door on your after willfully sinning for awhile. I tried to talk to god and go to this new church well the whole service i felt condemned and wish i stay in the faith like most people at the church i tried not to sin no more but kept falling into porn addiction and i would ask for forgivness then fall back into porn addiction i am willing 100 percent to stop but i already feel like im condemned and theirs no hope. These preacher quoted these verses that made me feel condemned.
Hebrews 6:4-6 4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,
6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.
Matthew 7:19
A good tree cannot produce bad fruit, nor can a bad tree produce good fruit. 19"Every tree that does not bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire.20"So then, you will know them by their fruits.
Am i condemed? or can i get back with god? if so how?
All sin can be forgiven,even if you live in sin for a year,it can be forgiven,and if you sincerely give up sin,and do not desire it,and allow the Spirit to lead you,you are not condemned,which we cannot doubt that this is possible,and we should not be hard on our self and hinder God's forgiveness,and love.
If you have received the Spirit,the gifts and calling of God are without repentance,which means God will not turn from it,although we might,but we can always give up the sin,and continue on as before.
Jas 5:19 Brethren, if any of you do err from the truth, and one convert him;
Jas 5:20 Let him know, that he which converteth the sinner from the error of his way shall save a soul from death, and shall hide a multitude of sins.
If we confess Christ,and have received the Spirit,if we do err from the truth,we can give up the sin,and all is right again.
If truly saved,sin can be forgiven all the day long,but we should not take advantage of God's forgiveness,and mercy,and love,knowing He will forgive,and it can be a gamble if we sin that we might get caught up in it.
Heb 6:4 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost,
Heb 6:5 And have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come,
Heb 6:6 If they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.
This falling away has to be someone that has stopped believing in the truth,and then later they came back to the truth,for if a person does get caught up in sin,but they still believe in God,and confess Jesus as Lord and Savior,all they have to do is repent of those sins,and not want them anymore,and they should be back on track with the Lord.
So this cannot mean a person that started sinning,but still confessed Jesus as Lord and Savior,which they did not deny the truth,but enjoyed sin for a while,but if they give it up,it can be forgiven.
Which this will explain it.
The Bible says that the saints cannot be gathered unto Christ,until there is a falling away first.
This falling away consists of people that do not believe that Jesus is Lord and Savior.
Which the Bible says in the latter times some will depart from the faith,and give heed to a false interpretation of the Bible,that is based on nature worship,and denies that Jesus is Lord and Savior,but is a great teacher in spiritual evolution(1 Timothy 4:1-5).
Which this interpretation will become so popular,that the time will come when they will not want to hear the truth of the Bible,but will want to hear the Bible according to their own lusts,and be turned on to fables(2 Timothy 4:2-4),which is when there is a unified religious system.
Which wanting to hear the Bible according to their own lusts,and are fables,is a nature worship interpretation that exalts people.
They deny Jesus as Lord and Savior,and exalt themselves,and in the future people will only want to hear it that way,for the world will view religion as spiritual evolution,by way of nature,but it is the time for the world to head to the beast kingdom.
So when the Bible says if they shall fall away,to renew them again unto repentance,it must mean they gave up on the truth,and then believed the truth again,for if a person is truly saved,led of the Spirit,and they sin for a while,but they still believe in God,and do not deny Jesus as Lord and Savior,all sin can be forgiven,even if a person lives in sin for a while.
So it cannot mean they sinned for a while,and cannot be renewed,for all they have to do is repent,and it is forgiven,that simple.
But these people that have fallen away,and believed again,want to do it all over again from scratch,the same as when they first came to God,and if they stop believing,and then believe again,and want to do it from scratch,they put the Son to an open shame.
So if you did not deny Jesus as Lord and Savior,but only engaged in sin for a tad bit,it is as simple of not wanting that sin anymore,and it will be forgiven,and allow the Spirit to lead you,and you will be back on the right track.
That is if you got saved rightly the first time,and if not,get saved the right way,which confess Christ,and allow the Spirit to lead you,but I do not believe that you fall under the category for falling away,and coming back,if you always as at the first,believed that Jesus is Lord and Savior.
2Pe 2:20 For if after they have escaped the pollutions of the world through the knowledge of the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, they are again entangled therein, and overcome, the latter end is worse with them than the beginning.
2Pe 2:21 For it had been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than, after they have known it, to turn from the holy commandment delivered unto them.
2Pe 2:22 But it is happened unto them according to the true proverb, The dog is turned to his own vomit again; and the sow that was washed to her wallowing in the mire.
These scriptures is what applies to a person that has been saved,and goes back to sinning,but they did not fall away in the sense of denying Jesus,but they enjoyed sin,but sin can be forgiven at any time.
So the falling away is someone that believed the truth,and then stopped believing the truth,but then believed the truth again,and wanted to start from scratch,which God said they would put the Son to an open shame,but does not apply to someone that engaged in sin for a while,but did not deny Jesus as Lord and Savior,for all they have to do is repent of that sin,and it is forgiven,and they are back on track with Jesus.
The New Age movement might have people like this,that believed the truth,and then gave heed to the new age movement's interpretation of the Bible,that Jesus is not Lord and Savior,but a good teacher,like other teachers,and then found out the new age is wrong,and went back to believing Jesus as Lord and Savior,which that would be an example of someone falling away,but also some people that did not give heed to the new age did the same thing,believed Jesus is Lord and savior,and then stopped believing,and then came back,or believing in God,then stopped believing,which they would not confess Christ under that circumstance,and then believed in God again.