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sadgirl
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I have a few qustions hope some one cares to answer. I am struggiling to seperate if I am looking to God for answers or just out of fear.... I was brought up in the church on and off all my life the kind of church that controls its members out of fear not compastion ex if you cut your hair wear makeup cuse dont pray enough ext.. you are going to hell no exeption then the paster turns around and is haveing sex with any women he wanted "God told him too" what a line of BS anyway being taught to fear not love god is makeing it really hard for me to figure out where im coming from
The qustion for me is if I try and have a realationship with god now I am really not sure if it is out of fear of "the end" or because i want to and if it is fear based is it just a waste of my time and Gods time or does it not matter why I am looking to God
I have found it really hard to have a real connection with God when in the past I have tried I have been shunned or told unless i am not a "PERFECT" christen no matter how hard I try its a waste of my time and I will go to hell. If thats true why bother I have a real hard time surrendering to a hateful god who would not look at my heart rather then just actions
Now please dont get me wrong I dont think its right to do as you please and expect to go to heaven however I dont think fear should be a motive
any insite would be great
The qustion for me is if I try and have a realationship with god now I am really not sure if it is out of fear of "the end" or because i want to and if it is fear based is it just a waste of my time and Gods time or does it not matter why I am looking to God
I have found it really hard to have a real connection with God when in the past I have tried I have been shunned or told unless i am not a "PERFECT" christen no matter how hard I try its a waste of my time and I will go to hell. If thats true why bother I have a real hard time surrendering to a hateful god who would not look at my heart rather then just actions
Now please dont get me wrong I dont think its right to do as you please and expect to go to heaven however I dont think fear should be a motive
any insite would be great