Well if you have slipped and have slipped three times then you do not ALWAYS do his will and or walk according to his ways.....and that is the point.....pride goes before a fall and a haughty spirit before destruction.......maybe the reason you slipped and fell is because of the pride of thinking that you do not sin and or are so righteous that you believe that you always do his will????? Not saying or accusing...notice the question marks....sorry I call everyone bro and didn't know as I rarely go to ones page to find out.....sorry again.
No I did not decide I wanted my will. There is an inbetween place where we start to use our own understanding instead of trusting entirely in His. It is not hard to do. It was not a slip into sin as such. I believed I was free from sin because He gave me that assurance from the Holy Spirit. In myself I knew/know that I am a miserable wretch without His grace and that I can only stand through His grace. I have no illusions about myself or lift myself above others. Many more have been much more faithful than me. I do not deserve His grace at all. No worries about calling me bro.