The common theme I see with a lot of your threads is that we should just have our heads down and just drag our feet in life. That we shouldn't even look up to smile, because we are that much pieces of you know what. That is the wrong mindset to have, because many people suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts day after day. They cry themselves to sleep after they get done sticking a razor blade in their arm because they think they're scum. They're worthless. Why am I alive? You mentioned you had suicidal thoughts, so I am guessing you thought these things at one point. The posts also come across that the moment you ask God for something, it should change. I mentioned how that is a lot like the prosperity Gospel, and it doesn't work like that. Why doesn't it? Because look at human sex trafficking. Day after day in this country alone, so many people's lives are ruined. Every night a lot cry out to God asking why doesn't He do something. For those that do get out, their lives are already ruined. They suffer from depression and huge self esteem issues the rest of their lives. I've met plenty of these women, and yes they are Christian. Those feelings never go away, even as Christians. It's one thing to preach the Gospel, which we are supposed to, but not turn everything into legalism. God doesn't sit there and watch a human that suffers and cries for help, and say to Himself "You know I'm not going to help you because I don't think you have enough belief." You mentioned you have a fiance. What if you two have a daughter, and one day she gets raped? What then, Jason? Is it her fault because her life will be forever ruined, and because she will have PTSD she won't be a Christian because she's not trusting God? Or what if that happens to your fiance? Do they not have enough faith because they will still go to sleep with the nightmares?
