thanks, decon, and Semper Fi. Just thought tintin could benefit from a book by John Piper called 'When I don't desire God'. Basically addresses those times when you KNOW you want to love Him more, but for whatever reasons, youre just not feeling motivated in the inner man, you dont want to just go thru the motions, but you know something must change because stagnation is not healthy, (we're either going forward or backward, immobility is not an option for the Christian). The 1st thing to know is youre not alone, many have gone thru the same thing, and have come out stronger and more blessed than they ever thought they could be.2nd is God is not disappointed or surprised, and stands ready to take you by the hand and lead you to higher ground. The book addresses the whys and offers answers for spiritual lethargy. Hope it can help you. Jesus loves you, dont let the enemy steal the joy that Jesus won and has given to you. Peace in Christ, sydlit.