Was hoping this, my 100th post would be a time of great rejoicing...now I sit wondering whats worse , having your hopes raised and dashed to the ground, or never having any in the first place. I still believe in Jesus, but I dont know why His family has spurned me. I honest to God dont know why, and have yet to find one honest enough to discuss it at length. No explanation, no forgiveness, no love. The Bible says in the latter days, the love of MANY would grow cold. I always thought that meant outside the Body, but I guess it means within as well. I thank you, Lord, for loving me. Please lead me to the place where I can love, and be loved by others also. Father, please remind my sisters and brothers, the opposite of love is not hate...its indifference, willful ignorance, and just not caring. Lord, guard my heart from these grievious sins, and forgive me when I fall to them myself. Bless those I chatted with briefly. Heal those who need healing, hold those that need holding, and please never stop loving us all. In Jesus name I thank you Lord, for your love. And grace and mercy. And joy. And peace. And true kindness. And humor. And sincerity. And forgiveness and salvation and a time for all these things and eternal life and Jesus. Thank you for Jesus. THANK YOU FOR JESUS, Lord. Amen. ( maybe my 100th WAS a time of rejoicing, just a bit, thank you, Jesus, my saviour, my Lord , my God )