No one wants me, no one needs me, no one gets me, no one loves me.
I'm sure that's all my fault, so I guess I'm unforgiveable, undesireable, unchangeable, and unloveable. I try, but I think it's too late for me, and so I'm single. I try to believe in Jesus for my past sins and future hope, but the in between, I still long for that human (woman) touch and companionship, and am desperately alone and lonely. Nothing I do seems to work, though I can pray for, give scripture and encouragement to others, it doesn't seem to apply to me, and I guess it's sin to have these feelings of desiring a mate above desiring God. Sure would be nice to have both instead of neither, ... just one beautiful, genuine, honest, faithful woman to share life and God with, but I feel like singleness (for me) is part of the punishment I deserve, and even eternity is starting to look pretty lonely. I hoped CChat would help change this, but it's made it worse, as shown by my being the only one here, typing to myself. It seems even christians flee from me, and no man or god would want their daughter or sister to be with me, and I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone. So I'm hurting, I'm lonely, and while the enemy laughs, and many celebrate, I'm single. God forgive me, please.