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I talked to someone on cc today, and he asked me to write something on a forum here. Said I got no inspiration. Few hours later, something came up on my mind. Not sure if I am seeking or giving advice and encouragement by writing this, but I just want to share something with you who are either in a relationship, or single. Just something to ponder upon.
Being 25, I feel like I am 50. Not that I look like one. People always say I look younger than my age anyway. But the feelings that I am older came because I had so much experiences that some or most people did not get the chance to experience. Somehow, I am lucky because I feel like I am mature than most people for this reason.
I was born a Muslim. I grew up having bad childhood years. I prayed many times so that God could help me, but He did not answer them. I became pagan and did not believe in God since then. Thus, I had no principles and guidance to help me throughout my teenage life. I became wild, and morally depraved. Having two to three boyfriends at the same time was the worst thing that I had done. It is hurting peoples' feelings and is the most ruthless thing you could imagine. I guess God taught me a lesson. I was cheated by someone whom I really loved dearly to my heart at the end. It tore me apart. I was really depressed, and went to see a psychiatrist. I was on pills and still am. But back then, I felt worst, because I did not have anyone or even God to turn to. So i decided to end my life.
But I guess He saved me. I found Christianity. Everytime I pray to Him, He will answer me. I knew I had found what I want. A guidance. To help me to feel strong every time I face difficulties. To have Faith in Him when I almost lost it.
No doubt that alot of men want to be with me. I am blessed to be liked. But the thing is, I always chose the wrong guy. Perhaps God wanted me to learn something from previous relationships, I am not sure. But I know, I do learn something. i become a better person. My latest relationship I had was the worst one. He is who I was before. And from those experiences, I knew how to handle it. I did not stop praying to the Lord Almighty to let me meet the right person, who can lead me closer to Him. I want that someone to be my partner in life. Of course my latest relationship did not work because He did not let me be close to Him. But I am sure, the right guy is out there on the way to see me to Lead me to HIM, THE ALMIGHTY.
So for you single men, dont judge a girl from their past. As an old saying, you learn from your mistakes, learn from your past. When a girl has this kind of past, she is most likely to have a better outlook about life. For you men who are in a relationship, don't dwell too much or be upset of your partner's past. They are actually blessed.
I want to thank God for giving me His blessing to have such experiences earlier than most people so that I can grow mature and be able to define what love truly is from God's perspective. He is always with us, no matter how bad we are, He will always give us another chance because He is Loving and Forgiving. So don't stop praying!
Being 25, I feel like I am 50. Not that I look like one. People always say I look younger than my age anyway. But the feelings that I am older came because I had so much experiences that some or most people did not get the chance to experience. Somehow, I am lucky because I feel like I am mature than most people for this reason.
I was born a Muslim. I grew up having bad childhood years. I prayed many times so that God could help me, but He did not answer them. I became pagan and did not believe in God since then. Thus, I had no principles and guidance to help me throughout my teenage life. I became wild, and morally depraved. Having two to three boyfriends at the same time was the worst thing that I had done. It is hurting peoples' feelings and is the most ruthless thing you could imagine. I guess God taught me a lesson. I was cheated by someone whom I really loved dearly to my heart at the end. It tore me apart. I was really depressed, and went to see a psychiatrist. I was on pills and still am. But back then, I felt worst, because I did not have anyone or even God to turn to. So i decided to end my life.
But I guess He saved me. I found Christianity. Everytime I pray to Him, He will answer me. I knew I had found what I want. A guidance. To help me to feel strong every time I face difficulties. To have Faith in Him when I almost lost it.
No doubt that alot of men want to be with me. I am blessed to be liked. But the thing is, I always chose the wrong guy. Perhaps God wanted me to learn something from previous relationships, I am not sure. But I know, I do learn something. i become a better person. My latest relationship I had was the worst one. He is who I was before. And from those experiences, I knew how to handle it. I did not stop praying to the Lord Almighty to let me meet the right person, who can lead me closer to Him. I want that someone to be my partner in life. Of course my latest relationship did not work because He did not let me be close to Him. But I am sure, the right guy is out there on the way to see me to Lead me to HIM, THE ALMIGHTY.
So for you single men, dont judge a girl from their past. As an old saying, you learn from your mistakes, learn from your past. When a girl has this kind of past, she is most likely to have a better outlook about life. For you men who are in a relationship, don't dwell too much or be upset of your partner's past. They are actually blessed.
I want to thank God for giving me His blessing to have such experiences earlier than most people so that I can grow mature and be able to define what love truly is from God's perspective. He is always with us, no matter how bad we are, He will always give us another chance because He is Loving and Forgiving. So don't stop praying!
