A Girl with a Bad Past

[juliet84]

Juilet,

I couldn't agree more with you; about not judging people from their past deeds. No one has a clean record. All we can really do is strive to improve ourselves once we eventually see the errors in our way of life. You are very fortunate to learn what you have at a young age. Most people will go their entire lives and never know what you have discovered; because, they never learned to correct themselves.

When you said you decided to end your life, what exactly happened? Clearly there was something that brought you too the light once you had reached the point of no return. I'm just curious; because, I too had reached a moment like that in my life.

It is great that you have found a sense of harmony in life now. I believe your dating troubles come from some of your past dating habits. People tend to have a habit of looking for the same qualities in someone as they did in the last few relationships. You need to stop yourself before you get too involved and ask yourself "Is this is what I need"? We all desire affection at some point or another; but, we need to focus on our relationship with God first and foremost. If that person you seek is more devoted to their personal needs than to what God asks of them; then they probably are not a good match for you. You want someone who understands how much of a blessing God is in your life; make sure they feel the same way or they will have wondering eyes (they won't be content with you).

Yes, I realize how lucky I am to have experienced all these so that I can help others who has the same problems. I praise God for that every single day.

My dating troubles did not come from my past dating habits. The real core reason is that I was deprived of love of my father who had violated my trust in him. I wish I could explain to make more sense of it. But I had not forgiven him for a long time, and when I was in a rship, trust issues became the major problem. I was scared that my boyfriend would cheat, so I did it first to avoid me getting hurt badly.

I decided to end my life for lots of reasons. I felt that I could give out love to people, but received none from others. I did not feel appreciated.

But since I found my true Father God, things get better. I love Him more than anything else in the world. I am amazed of how He cares about me, and gives me the peace tht I wanted to have for so long. I truly want to get to know Him and have a close relationship with Him, and want to be special to Him. He has shown me this, and im not just saying it......He often answers my prayers....

Thank u for ur comment.

 

[KingdomHeart]

SISTA Juliet wow ! Christ in you makes you shine! U ROCK! You are a blessing and will be an outstanding wife and mother in the near future! I know in my heart that right man who is for you had prayed you out of your life night mares and is praying you into his life as you pray him into your life! I tell you that is a true romance story! Your kindof story in the starting stages rarely has a happy ending and you opened up your heart to have it all turn around instead of wasting in bitterness and angry mind set. You gave God a chance and by doing that; you gave yourself a chance and so many others you havent even met yet a chance now that you have been transformed into God's likeness and image in your heart He will now use you to help restore others as you jounrny on with a GREAT purpose of real love and relationships! You have so much to offer and so much room to recieve blessings as well! CHAT WITH U SOON!

 

[juliet84]

SISTA Juliet wow ! Christ in you makes you shine! U ROCK! You are a blessing and will be an outstanding wife and mother in the near future! I know in my heart that right man who is for you had prayed you out of your life night mares and is praying you into his life as you pray him into your life! I tell you that is a true romance story! Your kindof story in the starting stages rarely has a happy ending and you opened up your heart to have it all turn around instead of wasting in bitterness and angry mind set. You gave God a chance and by doing that; you gave yourself a chance and so many others you havent even met yet a chance now that you have been transformed into God's likeness and image in your heart He will now use you to help restore others as you jounrny on with a GREAT purpose of real love and relationships! You have so much to offer and so much room to recieve blessings as well! CHAT WITH U SOON!

hehehe,.....thanks sis!!!! really appreciate ur comment here....lits so nice to read....lots of love from me....juliet

 

[estherliewan]

Hey Juliet,

Continue to seek God for guidance ! No matter what happens in the past God would have forgiven you. You are my admirer because you stood up for what is real! Continue to walk with God and I always would love to know more about your life!

 

[Jessay]

I talked to someone on cc today, and he asked me to write something on a forum here. Said I got no inspiration. Few hours later, something came up on my mind. Not sure if I am seeking or giving advice and encouragement by writing this, but I just want to share something with you who are either in a relationship, or single. Just something to ponder upon.

Being 25, I feel like I am 50. Not that I look like one. People always say I look younger than my age anyway. But the feelings that I am older came because I had so much experiences that some or most people did not get the chance to experience. Somehow, I am lucky because I feel like I am mature than most people for this reason.

I was born a Muslim. I grew up having bad childhood years. I prayed many times so that God could help me, but He did not answer them. I became pagan and did not believe in God since then. Thus, I had no principles and guidance to help me throughout my teenage life. I became wild, and morally depraved. Having two to three boyfriends at the same time was the worst thing that I had done. It is hurting peoples' feelings and is the most ruthless thing you could imagine. I guess God taught me a lesson. I was cheated by someone whom I really loved dearly to my heart at the end. It tore me apart. I was really depressed, and went to see a psychiatrist. I was on pills and still am. But back then, I felt worst, because I did not have anyone or even God to turn to. So i decided to end my life.

But I guess He saved me. I found Christianity. Everytime I pray to Him, He will answer me. I knew I had found what I want. A guidance. To help me to feel strong every time I face difficulties. To have Faith in Him when I almost lost it.

No doubt that alot of men want to be with me. I am blessed to be liked. But the thing is, I always chose the wrong guy. Perhaps God wanted me to learn something from previous relationships, I am not sure. But I know, I do learn something. i become a better person. My latest relationship I had was the worst one. He is who I was before. And from those experiences, I knew how to handle it. I did not stop praying to the Lord Almighty to let me meet the right person, who can lead me closer to Him. I want that someone to be my partner in life. Of course my latest relationship did not work because He did not let me be close to Him. But I am sure, the right guy is out there on the way to see me to Lead me to HIM, THE ALMIGHTY.

So for you single men, dont judge a girl from their past. As an old saying, you learn from your mistakes, learn from your past. When a girl has this kind of past, she is most likely to have a better outlook about life. For you men who are in a relationship, don't dwell too much or be upset of your partner's past. They are actually blessed.

I want to thank God for giving me His blessing to have such experiences earlier than most people so that I can grow mature and be able to define what love truly is from God's perspective. He is always with us, no matter how bad we are, He will always give us another chance because He is Loving and Forgiving. So don't stop praying!

I feel this testimony is worthy. God is doing His work amazingly.