You meant alone?
So I´m always on vacation...
And the visit me on demand (or when needed me to provide those things they lacked)
PS
Oh! No guilt and NOT missing them.
Just loving them the way they are.
Yes!
One single guilt I felt a couple of weekes back:
Alex wanted me to take her to a cyber shop and, since she delayed more than I wanted to wait, I missed her up...
When Joy phonecalled me to tell me: "Dad! Alex is crying and shouting a lot" ... I realized the DANGER my selfish attitude could have ended up:
What if she had run -downstairs- too fast and, at that rush, she had broken her bones...
When I pondered on MY SELFISHNESS (not having given her more time to get dressed) I felt this huge guilt I felt recently because I wanted to give her a lesson but, if she had run downstairs... That would have borken my heart, because I love her a lot (no matter a friend had told me that I´ve spoiled her, sometimes)
May the Lord see our guilts, our love, our needs to be alone (and with private intimacies) our KIDS had contributed (unadvertely) to isolate the lives we had wanted with our LOVE partners, those we married to enjoy, privately.