But you previously said, "The Holy Spirit comes to dwell inside us, to guide us. Ideally, a Christian should walk through life led by the Spirit.". Were you saying this because that is what you were taught or is that what happened to you?
Now you say, "I don't believe the Christian God exists anymore." So you were truly born again (the Holy Spirit regenerated you) now you say "He no longer exists"...there seems to be a serious disconnect.
Are you saying your testimony was really a fig newton of your imagination? It may have been, but that doesn't preclude God from being real.
You say "You don't believe the Christian God exists anymore." Do you think He existed at one time and is now dead? Does His existence depend on your 'believing'?
Let me just ask you, do you not believe anyone on earth has ever deconverted from a genuine belief? I mean. Take a devout Muslim, who believed at one point with all his heart that Allah was the one true god and the Koran was the inspired word of god. Then, after being introduced to Christianity, he goes through a crisis of faith, and eventually leaves Islam to become a Christian. In your eyes, was this person never a genuine Muslim?
["The Holy Spirit comes to dwell inside us, to guide us. Ideally, a Christian should walk through life led by the Spirit.". Were you saying this because that is what you were taught or is that what happened to you?
I'm not sure why you are having a hard time understanding this. At the time, I believed that it was happening to me. In fact, I knew it was happening to me. It was reality to me. Just like it is reality to you. You believe that the Holy Spirit is living inside of you. In fact, you believe it so strongly that you would go as far as to say that you know the Holy Spirit is living inside of you.
But if...and I'm just saying if...if God actually doesn't exist, then the Holy Spirit actually never existed and never dwelt inside of you, even if you believe it had. Do you see what I'm saying here?
I'm not contradicting myself. Back then, I truly believed Biblical Christianity to be reality, and everything, including the indwelling of the Holy Spirit through salvation, was as real to me as it is to you. My deconversion did not happen overnight. It was a rather painful process that took over two years. At the end of it, my worldview had shifted and now I no longer believe. But what you are trying to do is take my current worldview and somehow retroactively attach it to my past views on reality so that they were somehow no longer genuine. At the time, they were genuine.
Now, I understand what your dilemma is, because while I may no longer believe in the Spirit, you do. So there is this issue now of this person claiming to have accepted Christ as their savior and having been filled with the Spirit, only now to be saying that they no longer believe in the Spirit. In my view, it can end there. But in your view, the Spirit still exists, so an explanation needs to be made.
The easy thing to do, which is what you are doing now, is to simply dismiss the person as ever being a genuine believer. That solves the problem rather easily. Except, it's just not true. I did have a genuine belief. And I am not the only person this has happened to. There are former pastors, missionaries, ministers, and others who have literally sacrificed their relationships, their posessions, and parts of themselves to stay right with Christ and who loved God and believed they were filled with the Holy Spirit who now no longer believe.
I guess you could just continue to ignore us and pretend we don't exist. Or you could ask what would it mean if we did exist. Does the Holy Spirit leave us, does it stay? According to the poll, most people believe it leaves us. Although for Calvinists, that's a tough sell due to their belief that the holy spirit never leaves us. It makes for an interesting discussion I suppose.