Sorry to hear that, dear sister. There's nothing selfish about missing a loved one. Death is our enemy. Yes, your grandma is with Jesus (and that's fantastic news!) but she's not on earth. And that hurts. But don't feel guilty for having such feelings. They're completely healthy. I pray that you're surrounded and supported by your loved ones as you work through your grief and find healing in Jesus. God bless you, Tigress.