What you do from here on out is what is going to matter. You have broken trust with your husband and your children. You have betrayed the person whom you promised your life to and you have betrayed God. Not one person here is perfect or sinless. Please don't get me wrong I'm not saying that your situation cannot be fixed because, I 100% believe God can heal any relationship if you both allow him to work in your lives. You have to be willing to give 100% of you life over to God, give Him control of everything and trust Him in all thing. Adultery is not a new topic for God. In John 8 we read this: the teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4 and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5 In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” 6 They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground. 9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” 11 “No one, sir,” she said. “Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin. The key to these verses is at the end. Leave you life of sin. You need to work harder than ever before to gain back the trust of your husband. That means answering any question he has for you as many times as he needs to until he trusts you. It means he will question your whereabouts when you leave the house and will go through any piece of electronic you use. If you are not willing to give your husband 100% full access to your life, your marriage will not be healed. My suggestion to you is to get right with God, get help for your addiction to cheating, and come clean with your husband. Then trust God to take care of the rest. It may not end up the way you want it to but I can promise you God's way is the perfect way because it is the way that follows His plan.