I'm finding it increasingly difficult to live the Christian life. I knew this week was going to be a tough one at work but it was worse than I had imagined. People take advantage when they know you are a Christian yet you are supposed to "turn the other cheek" and simply take what is thrown at you. I am left feeling like "I can't do this anymore". I have other stuff going on as well as this and I feel convicted - daily, really it's daily!
Is it just me or am I in the middle of a spiritual warfare battle everyone goes through at some stage. I just feel like "ugh"!
Its not just you!
I wrote recently how everyday we are facing a much much bigger spiritual battle for our very souls. More so than we, (even some of the most God fearing Christians) realize.
It's good that you feel convicted! That means the Holy Spirit is close to you. It is His spirit that convicts us both for our own sins and the sin of others so that we may pray for them. Prayer opens up doors for God to work through. Maybe those doors will be a promotion for them to work in another office, building, area, city, country. God works in mysterious ways.
As for feeling like ugh, I also can relate to this and sympathise with you.
I feel like ugh all the time! Yeh, he's a good friend of mine is ugh. Soon we will be celebrating another birthday together. 20 odd long years just me and ugh. Yeh, ugh is a good friend of mine and most people trying to live a Christian life.
Why do those that know not Christ, know no pain, sorrow, guilt or regret for their sins and transgressions? Why do the wicked prosper in their devices and the world continue to offer glittering prizes to those with stout hearts and sharp swords?
Those not in Christ, those that haven't come to accept Christ as their personal Lord and Saviour, those that have not truly come to know God and have no knowledge of what it means to live a Christian life. Those people of the world that know not God. They know no guilt or sorrow, they know no regret or shame for their actions. They feel no shame or regret for hurt caused to other people be it through their words or actions.
But we do. Because we know Jesus personally. So our sins, our transgressions, our trespasses, are obvious to us. And we know that Christ died because of them.
Yet the world does not know this. And those that deny the truth, they cannot understand it. So they act like Neanderthals almost. Like robots running around not really knowing what their real purpose or goal in life is. Not knowing that there is great reward waiting for them.
Remember, no where in the bible does it ever say that its going to be easy. Only that it would be worth it!
We must not pray to make life easier. Only for the strength to deal with it.
God bless you, will pray for you. Keep your chin up MPW, you are greatly loved!
Rudimental.