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Levichevett

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Sometimes I don't want things to get better.Sometimes I want things to get really bad so I have a reason to kill myself.Sometimes I wish people didn't care, so I could kill myself without feeling bad.Does that make me a crap person?
 
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Little_Woman

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You think that you're alone who cries at night!
Swear, that's not true!
I, Amanda cry at night often
and seriously!
 

blue_ladybug

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Sometimes I don't want things to get better.Sometimes I want things to get really bad so I have a reason to kill myself.Sometimes I wish people didn't care, so I could kill myself without feeling bad.Does that make me a crap person?
Don't you mean you wish things would get worse so you'll have an easy out? Suicide is selfish, evil and cowardly. It goes against God's commandment to not murder. Suicide is as much murder, as homicide is. You want a reason to leave this crappy evil earth, and I do understand that. But we need to persevere because the return of Jesus is not too very far away. :)
 

blue_ladybug

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You think that you're alone who cries at night!
Swear, that's not true!
I, Amanda cry at night often
and seriously!

Crying serves absolutely no purpose at all. It's not going to change things for you. If you want to feel better, YOU need to take action to make that happen, because all the crying in the world won't help you one bit..
 

RickyZ

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Sometimes I don't want things to get better.Sometimes I want things to get really bad so I have a reason to kill myself.Sometimes I wish people didn't care, so I could kill myself without feeling bad.Does that make me a crap person?
No, that makes you human in a fallen world.

James 4:4
Ye adulterers and adulteresses, know ye not that the friendship of the world is enmity with God? Whosoever therefore will be a friend of the world is the enemy of God.

1 John 2:15
Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

John 15:19
If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.

John 12:25
Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.

2 Corinthians 10
That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

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There's really nothing more I'd like to do than go home. But every time this world pushes me into depression and wanting to leave it, I think that I must be doing something right.

It's a war of attrition. That's why God calls for the perseverance of the saints. We know Who the last Man standing is.
 
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Little_Woman

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Crying serves absolutely no purpose at all. It's not going to change things for you. If you want to feel better, YOU need to take action to make that happen, because all the crying in the world won't help you one bit..

I know,
I don't believe in myself.
I still need Faith the overcome
my injuries.
 

Elisabet

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Crying serves absolutely no purpose at all. It's not going to change things for you. If you want to feel better, YOU need to take action to make that happen, because all the crying in the world won't help you one bit..
We need actions indeed, but in my opinion crying helps us to express what we feel. We can be calmer after we cry and therefore we can think more positively.
 

Elisabet

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We need actions indeed, but in my opinion crying helps us to express what we feel. We can be calmer after we cry and therefore we can think more positively.
In that way, crying also has some positive effects toward our mentality. I can imagine the danger of someone who cannot cry because previously i experienced the same thing and it was like nothing could help you to ease the pain.
 

RickyZ

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We do need outlets. If we bottle things up inside, it colorizes our vision.
 
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Levichevett

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It feels like Im depressed because Im not good enough to be happy. And if Im not good enough to be happy, why would I be good enough to be alive? I dont want to hold on anymore.
 

blue_ladybug

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It feels like Im depressed because Im not good enough to be happy. And if Im not good enough to be happy, why would I be good enough to be alive? I dont want to hold on anymore.

You're good enough to be alive, BECAUSE GOD CREATED YOU!! And that's an excellent reason NOT to kill yourself. :) Many here have been depressed, or are depressed, but you know what? We don't want to kill ourselves over a bit of depression. You're letting satan get the best of you, banish him away and ask God to help you.
 
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Levichevett

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I wish that it wasn't the way it has to be
 

RickyZ

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Me too my friend. That boat you're in is pretty crowded these days.
 

Elisabet

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I wish that it wasn't the way it has to be
But when you finally are able to pass through it, you probably will look back and realize: "there's no better ways than this."
 
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Levichevett

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there isn't actually any point in being alive like we're literally here to just go to heaven or hell. All we do is suffer along the way. Anything that has to torture u before u get there probably ain't worth it really
 
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Levichevett

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I can't even talk to my bro or my bf about it all because I already get them to help me so much if I go to them every time I'm depressed they'd never have any time for themselves and then they'd end up leaving me
 

RickyZ

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That is a problem. Don't want to be here, but you can't leave. I wrestle with that every day. Hardly a day goes by that I don't pray, Lord, today someone will die who doesn't want to, please take me instead. And I mean it, even the best day in this hell-hole is absolute filth compared to the worst day in what we have to come. When I think that in the next twinkling of my eye I could be partying before the Throne of God... here, mugger mugger mugger! Puhleaze!

I was 17 when I tried to make the leap by my own hand, obviously it failed and I'm still here. And I've gone on to be used by God to affect many people's lives for the better, and to do that is a blessing. Yet hardly a day goes by when I don't wish in some way that it had worked. Would'a saved me 40+ years of swimming in satan's cesspool. But I promised God I wouldn't try it again.

Jesus says we will suffer in this world. We are in it not of it. To Christ's enemies (ie satan and his horde) we are like a drop of water in a bottle of oil. The oil can't outright destroy it, but it'll do everything it can to isolate and expel it. Paul suffered, and wished to move on (for to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain Phil 1:21+), but thought it necessary to remain in the body. He also said in 1 Thess 3:8 that for now we live, if you are standing fast in the Lord. So while we who are saved will not go to 'hell' for committing suicide, we are instructed not to, and we will account for it if we do.

You don't have to like it here. In fact, if you do, that's when I would start to worry. I've often said that you can tell how much potential one has in the kingdom of God by how hard satan works to hold them under. That is why he has stolen your dignity and potential. To make you as irrelevant to the world as you can possibly be. Be angry, but at that. Don't hate ignorant humanity, hate the one(s) who have made humanity ignorant. God talks about the battle being won thru perseverance – this is a war of attrition, with the benefit of knowing Who the last Man standing is. Really, when satan flings his monkey-s--t at me I just say I wouldn’t have it any other way. Because I know that, eventually, in the end, we’ll be lifted out of this cesspool, and he won’t.
 
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Tintin

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Your profile says you're 14, but you look at least 20. Something smells fishy.
 
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Your profile says you're 14, but you look at least 20. Something smells fishy.
It's because it's not him. It's a picture of someone who seems like they already passed away.