Not having faith in Jesus increased her union with God?
That's like saying a fish out of water increased its oxygen intake.
I think not..... Archbishop Lucas Sirkar of Calcutta said it best: "Those who are questioning the faith of the Mother have no idea of what is spiritual life. The more you move forward in the path to saintliness or holiness, the more you have to struggle against that which is not holy." And then we have Sister Nirmala, Mother Teresa's successor and superior general of the Missionaries of Charity, added that what Mother Teresa went through is "A trial few souls go through. The light is so strong and the human capacity is so less. What happens when you look at the blazing sun? You are blinded. It’s like that."
This is were I suggest you go back and take a long hard read on my last sentence of post #99.
Whether it’s like an eclipse or being blinded, many devout and saintly people feel God has deserted them. The ancient Jewish prayer songs, the Psalms, are full of such allusions and Jesus utters one of these psalms questioning why God has forsaken him as he dies on the cross.
The sixteenth century Spanish poet and mystic, St. John of the Cross, goes further. He advises deliberately casting aside bodily pleasures and desires and emptying ourselves of spiritual feelings and thoughts – "the dark night of the soul". Instead, he says, we must "lean upon dark faith, taking it for guide and light". He explains how this period of dark faith is a painful time of apprehension and despair when God is purifying us so we might be ready for a new life in union with him.
St Teresa of Avila, the sixteenth century mystic and friend of St John, went through 18 years of emptiness before her "soul was full of light", while the most widely read spiritual writer, Trappist monk Thomas Merton, prayed, "I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me."
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The depth of Mother Teresa's doubts could be viewed by nonbelievers and skeptics like yourself as more evidence of the emptiness of religious belief. But Catholic scholars and supporters of the woman who toiled in Calcutta's slums and called herself "a pencil in God's hand" argue that her struggles make her more accessible and her work all the more remarkable."It shows that she wasn't a plaster-of-Paris saint who never had a doubt about God or the ultimate meaning of life," said the Rev. Richard McBrien, a University of Notre Dame theology professor and author of "Lives of the Saints." "This can only enhance her reputation as a saintly person with people who aren't easily impressed with pious stories. Those who think otherwise have a lot of learning to do about the complexities of life and about the nature of faith."
Ultimately what it comes down to Utah, is that Mother Teresa's struggles will demonstrate faith isn't about feeling, it's about will.
Pax Christi