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My husbands been gone to the hospital for over a week and a half now.hes been diagnosed with scizoaffective disorder and bipolar.He thinks he has put me up as an idol in his life and Gods takeing me away from him.The doctors wont tell me anything because of policys and any imformation i get i get from his mom.i had to quit my job and dont even know how anythings going to get paid.its hard when your trying tk keep everything together and you dont know weither to stay at a place where you have no friends are try to find a way back where i came from wich is over 3,000 miles away.I dont even know if my husbands comeing back are if he is leaveing forever.I know your sjppose to be with each other to sickness and health richer are poorer but i dont even know if he plans on bieng with me when he gets back and we have a two year old son together.Its been 5 days and the medicine they have been giveing him isent even helping.when his motber mentioned me to him he just got upset and told her she knows he cant have anything to do with me are he will be punished.He was my best friend and know im left all alone with no help...no friends... no job...no car...i know people are like stop complaning blah blah blah but i dont need that.i already feel like low life piece of crap and i dont need the maby Gods trying to teach you to rely on him cause im actully relying on my self more than ever cause all anybody wants to do is pray.oh ill pray for you but i wont ask you if i can take you anywhere because its raining and you and your baby has to walk in the rain,but i will judge you for takeing your baby out in the rain.Im so sick and tierd of all the fake people out there.tney care but you havent talked to any of them in a week and when you do its cause they need something from you.I hate life...if it werent for my son i swear i would just kill myself.i dont always feel this way but rightnow im so lonly inside i just want to die,and scream and hide.