How sad that you're feeling lonely. I've always been a lone wolf rather than a social butterfly, not by choice, but because I'm shy. I never know what to say during a conversation. I have depression too; it was only officially diagnosed a while ago, but at least I have meds for that. However, there are no pills to cure lonely. At the end of the day, I'm alone, remembering the social life I lost after 1 year when it took me over 20 years to have one. I'm not saying this to have a personal pity party; I'm just saying I understand feeling lonely.