Your disabilities, lack of wealth, inability to get out much, age, and looks aren't your problem. You are your problem. Reread what you wrote. You are the main attraction of your thoughts and desires, and yet everyone else is so surface-level they don't want you. You're the one looking at the surface only, so don't blame that on others.
And don't blame your disability either. You can write. You've got a computer. You have internet access. Everything needed to do something for someone else, to make a difference, to help someone else, and become friends, but look how you're using it. It's about you.
THAT's the problem. You're so inwardly focused you aren't helpful to anyone, including yourself.
Yes, you will know the verses I'm about to quote, BUT will you realize you're not doing them? Your gong is loud!
1 Cor. 13:
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith,so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant5 or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. 7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. 11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways. 12 For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
13 So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
I'm home alone all day, every day. My phone hardly ever rings, and it takes forever for family to respond to my emails. God created you, you ARE good enough for him. 
