I have a thought.
Those from a legalist background, trained in how to self condemn, to be sensitive to any
flaw or fault, perceived or otherwise, do you love and accept yourself?
I saw a film called "Good Will hunting" At the end of the film a point is made, "It is not your
fault." So much in our lives, is not our fault, it is where we are born, how we grow, who are
family are, how are schools and experiences developed.
Out of all this, the amount we can effect or even choose is very limited.
It seems in opening up to the Lord it is also to believe, yes I am worthy of being saved.
Now what I mean by "worthy", I mean you are someone God loves and can love.
So many here are seriously broken and beaten up people. The trauma and difficulties
you have had I have never come close to. So I am humbled by your testimonies.
What I am trying to convey is Jesus loves you, you, the real you, not hidden behind
Christ, or seen only through a filter, but you in all your states and confusion.
There is literally nothing new to the Lord, and nowhere the Lords love cannot go.
But part of the real walk with Christ is accepting He does love you. The cross says
it all. It is what has driven me most of my life, and trying to find words to let what
he put within, without. We have a great Lord, and a great gospel, and a great
eternity.