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So I know I posted a few months ago about whether or not I had committed the unforgivable/unpardonable sin of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. I am still struggling with this. I feel hopeless. I can't even hear or read the word Holy Spirit without having an evil thought. I continue to ask God to equip be in the full armor of Him and to help me take captive very thought. Every time I have these thoughts I pray for mercy and ask God to help me not have these evil thoughts but to have thoughts that are pleasing and glorifying unto Him. I ask Him to remove any demonic bondage that may be on me. I do believe that Jesus is Lord, I have trouble with whether or not I truly believe He died and rose again or if i am just acknowledging it. I feel so scared and I keep having the thoughts and feelings that God has left me and no longer wants me because of the thoughts I have. I want to not have these thoughts. I want Jesus to use me to bring others to Him. I want to be free in Christ, and be happy. Is there any hope for me? Am I condemned to hell? I feel like it and I don't want to go to hell but Heaven.