I came across an article which was from an atheist stating god wasn't real, usually they don't affect me.
I started having strong doubts about Jesus, and they kept getting stronger, i srarted thinking what if god isn't real? What if im doing the right thing for nothing? Im giving up everything of the world after all, and in the end i will end up being nothing. All that fun i would of missed out on for nothing, this is my only chance.
I couldn't think clearly at all, those thought took over my mind, but it wasn't just thoughts, it was emotional as well, very strong feelings of despair, fear, etc.
I couldn't think properly, i was trying to think why am i even having these thoughts and feelings? I didnt just goto god on a whim, i looked at my life, I saw i needed him, and i wanted to do the right thing, i wanted to do right by God. Again doubt and strong emotion feelings kept jumping in my head and clouding my mind.
I started thinking vaugley, is this the devil? No, it can't be, these thoughts and feelings are inside me, it can't be, it must be a lack of faith in God. I felt like running away from it all, then i remembered, resist the devil and he will flee, it kept getting stronger, i was trying to resist and was failing miserable. This went on for about 15 mins, then i told the devil, no, leave me, you have no power over me anymore, god has freed me from you.
Seconds later, everything stopped, the doubt stopped, the thoughts, the emotions stopped, and were replaced with a feeling of peace. I could think straight again.
Even now i look back and wonder if that really had just happened, was that real? Was the devil really influencing my thoughts? My emotions? Or was it just me.
It's very hard to determine weither the devil was or not, it is very hard to determine when your under attack or if it's coming from ourself or outside influences. Is this what the devil is like? I had no idea what was going on, untill it was all over.
Has anyone else had similar issues?