I don't know you at all Roger. I accept what you say about receiving many infillings but I would call it anointings. That I can understand. What I mean that you can't understand is the language of Spirit since you are against it. You obviously don't have it. So how could you understand?
You are swept up in romantic fantasy about what being a Christian is all about. Without a good sound doctrinal foundation you will be swept to and fro by every wind of doctrine.
John 16: 7 ¶ Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.
8 And when he is come, he will reprove the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment:
9 Of sin, because they believe not on me;
10 Of righteousness, because I go to my Father, and ye see me no more;
11 Of judgment, because the prince of this world is judged.
12 I have yet many things to say unto you, but ye cannot bear them now.
13 Howbeit when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will shew you things to come.
14 He shall glorify me: for he shall receive of mine, and shall shew it unto you.
For the cause of Christ
Roger