I've been trying to be inquisitive about God but I keep feeling like it's empty learning. I have been thinking that if I come to a logical understanding of God I can be at peace. Before, I thought getting some sort of a high off something would bring peace. Then I thought alcohol would bring peace. Now I've been thinking that organizing my life and learning would bring peace. But no matter how low I get or self-satisfied/prideful I get I don't have peace. Feeling a bit depressed about it so pray that I don't get super low and I'm able to get right with God. Also the I still have bit of a problem with wanting alcohol. I don't think it's good for me emotionally so pray that I can stop that. Thanks