Does 15 years seem that amazing? I struggled with trying to make myself loving and get control of my tongue and my anger when my toes were stepped on for at least...8 years. True, I wasn't following outwardly the law, but does it really make that much difference? I was still struggling to obey the law inwardly. I had the Spirit, but it took that long to get a real understanding that HE had to do it. I went 8 years like that and in one second I was freed from that struggle and saw that I couldn't be good and that He had to do it.
Stunned - you have different fruit. Your issues are ones of the heart and personal,
not a mission against a whole group, to which you previously belonged.
You have from your heart shared your struggles and your desire to walk with the Spirit
in victory over them. So my heart say amen to you, from all that I am.
What you have displayed is both repentance, confession and ministry of God in your
life. And I know from your words you have changed. Likewise you have read a different
emotional response from myself, mainly because I was not being looked at and responded
to as an enemy.
One member who I thought might have grown and changed, called me a rodent straight
away. Others recently related me to the serpent in the garden of eden. But then I did not
expect much more than this, because I knew I could not reach who they are.
And in the end that is what all this comes down to. Being honest and real in the body and
with Christ. It gets hard wired into you, because it is what the Kingdom is, and those who
do not walk this way feel it, but do not know how to respond. It is why we are called light.
I begin to understand more through these forums, and how people on all sides have problems
with this, ofcourse myself as well, as it is always a walk. So I appreciate your fellowship,
and your honesty.
I remember sharing something from my heart and experience, and I was told I was lying.
This says a lot about what people think is real behaviour and what is exaguration, and they
have never met or understood it is their ability to judge that is off and not peoples sharing.
It does get more complex when people also exagurate and distort something as well, even
well meaning ones, so grace and love is also needed in some measure.