It is those heart attitudes that I still very much struggle with, and I must turn to God and Jesus Christ again and again for help in combating my continued lapses, which sometimes cause me great embarrassment and shame, despite knowing I am forgiven, and loved dearly by Him Who welcomes me into His presence, through the shed blood of Christ, out of His great love for ALL of us, whether we believe or not. Coming to that place of a fuller surrender and acceptance of His plan through His Son, was the number one biggest change of my life, but I am still responsible for putting one foot in front of the other as I walk after His perfect ways, in all my human frailty and imperfection.