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As some of you may know I have been accepted into the army and will be leaving in July. I am the last one left at home and as such it will be 'empty nest' when I have gone. I have known for a long time that this would be hard on my parents especially mum. That is the main reason I am still at home at age 19-20. When I leave my horse may also go. My horse is dearly loved by mum but she is a bit too busy to keep him. She will be without anyone except husband who can be very trying and doesn't have the same interests. Probably will not make any close friends as it is a very small town with only one other Christian woman. Mum isn't really into friendships anyway.
Lately my mum has become depressed and sad. I feel slightly responsible and selfish. It's not like I didn't have work at home. I am thinking perhaps I should refuse and stay to make the parents happy and to help them as they get older. It would be hard to back down now after all the hard work entering. Another option is I fail basic intentionally. What can I do? I don't want to be the death of mum. I feel very selfish at the moment.
Dad wants me home too. I have been the most helpful and liked of their children. They don't want me to go. The other children were obnoxious before they left which made it a slight relief when they went but me... no I'm a 'good' kid. I feel I made a mistake like I should have pursued my interests at home instead of this silly idea of leaving home. IDK. At crossroads. Sorry that was rather long.
Lately my mum has become depressed and sad. I feel slightly responsible and selfish. It's not like I didn't have work at home. I am thinking perhaps I should refuse and stay to make the parents happy and to help them as they get older. It would be hard to back down now after all the hard work entering. Another option is I fail basic intentionally. What can I do? I don't want to be the death of mum. I feel very selfish at the moment.
Dad wants me home too. I have been the most helpful and liked of their children. They don't want me to go. The other children were obnoxious before they left which made it a slight relief when they went but me... no I'm a 'good' kid. I feel I made a mistake like I should have pursued my interests at home instead of this silly idea of leaving home. IDK. At crossroads. Sorry that was rather long.