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I've tried to be fair, I've tried to be patient and understanding but when I see my grandkids run outside every time they see a bus pass by, hoping it's their dad, it rest hurts me and ticks me off at the same time , and then when he finally does come home, he has this look on his face like " don't bother me" and " I hate being here" . I've asked God for guidance as to what to do because because I do not like see g my grandkids and my daughter treated like they don't mean anything to him, but yet he wants to spend every moment he can with his new baby daughter and girlfriend. If i kick him out, my grandkids will probably hate me and hurt even more because they'll see they didn't mean enough to him to fix their family , but he had to start a new family and wants to give it his all. I feel I'm a fairly good person but when I see my grandkids hurt and therir father acting like he's me big stuff, I start to wish the worst for him , and I dislike that those bad thoughts come to mind. Seems like every time I try to be fair and understanding to make everyone happy, something happens to make it worse, I feel I'm getting pushed or tested, I feel something is trying to break me. Could it be Satan has a hand in all this, from the beginning I always thought so .