I have heard statements like this all my life. I guess I cannot escape it...
I am
very "detail-oriented" -- and, am able to "scrutinize" the 'data' in / of a situation with precision and clarity.
My picture hangs in the "hall of fame" of my high-school for having achieved 'excellence' in math and physics.
If I have the necessary equipment and schematics, I can troubleshoot almost anything electrical or electronic.
( Not so much in recent years as in years past; I am growing so weary and tired of this world that I don't really care to do it any more. )
I am able to "think in 3D" --- my spatial awareness and reasoning ability seems to be well-above-the-average. ( Albeit, the previous line in parentheses applies here too. )
Back when I was in high school, it was suggested to me that my IQ "surely must be at least 140"...
Yet --- I seem to be unable to "find my place in the world" in a way that is sufficiently edifying to me or of worthwhile service to others.
What a waste - huh?
I suppose that I will never know what it is like to be truly loved by a woman -- unless I can find a woman who can appreciate the [ unusual? ] kind of 'characteristics' that I possess.
"Oh, well..." 
All I have ever wanted -- all I have really ever asked God for -- was to have a really good relationship with [ just one ] really good woman -- a "life" partner and companion who I could trust - and love.
Back in high school -- every guy in school just wanted to get laid -- I wanted "the whole enchilada" - "the whole woman" - not just her body. I was trying to do things God's way even back then. Nonetheless, God did not see fit to put me together with any of the women in my life. Or, I lost out because I was a bit too shy...?
But I learned something very valuable along the way about 'sincerity'. And, I am no longer "afraid" -- I am not nearly as 'shy' as I used to be.
Why? Because I know a lot more now about "how to love"...
Why do I not have a degree?
Because, I dropped out of school.
Want to know why I dropped out of school?
No "life" -- only hard work. Got "burned out"...
Distraction. No woman in my life to love.
It always seems to come back to the woman.
No matter how I slice it, dice it, or figure it -- it always seems to come back to the woman.
I have lived a life of hard work - and distraction -- and, all I really care about is finding the right kind of woman - to love...
The reason it is hard for me to take a good photograph - with a smile - is because I have lived such an unhappy life that my face has simply "molded itself" to a more 'neutral' facial arrangement. It does not mean that I never smile. I do. Only, it takes more physical effort by way of laughing, etc. to move the proper muscles, etc. in a way to make the smile appear.
Folks -- please don't misunderstand -- I am not having a "pity-party" -- I am only volunteering some information about my life to help you understand what-I-am-all-about and some of the reasons why I am the way I am.
I have good intentions -- even if I fail to achieve the right and proper results all the time.
And, this is only part of the picture / story.
Please remember this before you become a critic.
