It's hard to learn anything when you always feel the need to be the expert.
Great quotation. I watch this way too often in someone I love. I hurt for this person: it stymies growth, making it slow and so delayed. But I have my own faults of which I am unaware.
I was born into a tongues-talking church organization, not one that publicly used the idea often -- not even weekly -- except during their summer camp meetings. Further, the odd behavior I've seen on the Internet was
very limited. Regardless, I was never comfortable with it.
When the local pastor excommunicated me, and I gladly walked away, I also walked away from their idea of tongues. As a result, the unfortunate thing was that I also avoided any study of the H Spirit. However, I am glad I saw this thread tonight, because I finally starting studying the H Spirit (not tongues) last night and studied all night instead of sleeping. Wow. It has been thrilling.
Over my years away from the old organization (since December of 1998), I have been disheartened by the disregard, disrespect, and minimalizing of the H Spirit I have seen and read. This is a real head-shaker, a wonder. He is not a toy; He will not be treated as a toy: but it seems a lot of people do not realize this.
While in that church, I witnessed examples of people doing fake tongues. I also saw the spread of teenagers faking sign language, calling this tongues. Saw a few interesting dances; saw a lot of eyes darting here and there apparently, to make sure they were being seen. A few claimed they could speak in tongues at any time, anywhere, upon their own desire. Their were a few who admitted that they believed their speech had stumbled, and that was all their "tongues" were. And there were a lot of people who were confused and disheartened.
So as I continue my study of the H Spirit, I want my heart to be open to Truth, not to my fears, misgivings, or resentment of the past.
One of the first things I saw again, as I studied last night, was that unlike what many believe today, the giving of the H Spirit did not start with Acts 2. People who think this have not read much of their Bibles. The H Spirit is not about tongues; He is so much more than just that.