Welcome to CC, Mary! Nice to meet you.
I’m so sorry to hear about your situation. My heart ached as I read your post, and I wish I could give you a hug. Divorce after 23 years of togetherness is a hard thing to go through. I just can’t imagine how painful and devastating it must be for you. Please know that I’ll be praying for you, asking the Lord to surround you with His comfort, strength, and provide the help you need at this time. Are you seeing a counselor/therapist? Do you think that's something that might be helpful for you personally? I know it’s not easy right now, but stay strong. Hugs to you!