I'm sorry for what has happened to you and is happening to you but I can't counsel you Bill. I can only share what I've been learning and it isn't what you've been told or supposed. I go one day at a time and that is how the Holy Spirit has been teaching me. I was once without any means in this world and then started learning about what it means to trust Jesus and the righteousness He gave me way back in the 1980s.
I've only recently begun learning how to walk by faith and not by sight. I can't answer for anyone else except myself. But I found out that to see God I have to see His Son. Not through the eyes of other people or opinions. But through His grace and truth. That is a daily thing.
Looking at other people is not where the answers are. I believe Jesus loves me and will take care of me and He has. I believe that Psalm 91 is for us today and I claim His promises for my life. I don't try to figure out why some don't and some do. I don't even go there. There is a rest for us and that is where I go.
When I read these verses I know that Jesus met every single requirement and condition for these promises. And I walk them out as mine because Jesus paid for them by His stripes we are healed and we have His Holy Spirit to show us the way to believe. I need the Holy Spirit every day.
[SUP]1 [/SUP]He who [SUP][
a][/SUP]dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable
and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand].
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2 [/SUP]I will say of the Lord, He is my Refuge and my Fortress, my God; on Him I lean
and rely,
and in Him I [confidently] trust!
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3 [/SUP]For [then] He will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence.
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4 [/SUP][Then] He will cover you with His pinions, and under His wings shall you trust
and find refuge; His truth
and His faithfulness are a shield and a buckler.
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5 [/SUP]You shall not be afraid of the terror of the night, nor of the arrow (the evil plots and slanders of the wicked) that flies by day,
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6 [/SUP]Nor of the pestilence that stalks in darkness, nor of the destruction
and sudden death that surprise
and lay waste at noonday.
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7 [/SUP]A thousand may fall at your side, and ten thousand at your right hand, but it shall not come near you.
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8 [/SUP]Only a spectator shall you be [yourself inaccessible in the secret place of the Most High] as you witness the reward of the wicked.
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9 [/SUP]Because you have made the Lord your refuge, and the Most High your dwelling place,
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10 [/SUP]There shall no evil befall you, nor any plague
or calamity come near your tent.
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11 [/SUP]For He will give His angels [especial] charge over you to accompany
and defend
and preserve you in all your ways [of obedience and service].
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12 [/SUP]They shall bear you up on their hands, lest you dash your foot against a stone.
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13 [/SUP]You shall tread upon the lion and adder; the young lion and the serpent shall you trample underfoot.
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14 [/SUP]Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore will I deliver him; I will set him on high, because he knows
and understands My name [has a personal knowledge of My mercy, love, and kindness—trusts and relies on Me, knowing I will never forsake him, no, never].
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15 [/SUP]He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
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16 [/SUP]With long life will I satisfy him and show him My salvation.
Footnotes:
- Psalm 91:1 The rich promises of this whole chapter are dependent upon one’s meeting exactly the conditions of these first two verses (see Exod. 15:26).