Blain's Testimony

[PerfectlyImperfect]

I havent made a testimony because ppl hardly even read testimonies let alone post in them but I figured I might as well.
I guess it begins when I was with my mom and dad, as a young kid as long as I could remember they were always abusive and starved me severely. I was always hungry and I was treated like a slave, I did all sorts of chores and for no reason at all they would hurt me. I had to clean the carpet with nothing but water and a tooth brush and they hit me a lot. I remember they would sit in a circle and I had to take my pants off and one by one they would stab my in the but with a sowing needle. there was one time they made me eat a cockroach another they made me eat my sisters poop another they made me drink my uncles throw up.

There was another time my mom cut my bottom with a knife and said the blood coming out was demons and scared me. my mom would sometimes make special pancakes for me, she would make pancakes crunch up lots of pills and say they were sprinkles and drench it in syrup. I knew I would black out if i ate it but i never get to eat good so I did it no problem.

Basically I had a terrible child hood, and I dont even remember the worst parts, when I was taken away at age eight apparently my parents spilled the beans of all they did and I was put in a foster home. my foster mom still wont tell me the parts I dont remember she said it was to gruesome and horrible for me to handle all i know is that they sexually abused me and lots of horrible things that my mind apparently cant remember because they starved me so bad and they drugged so much that I somehow had brain damage. at the age of eight I was the size of a four year old due to not being fed good so I had to eat a whole lot so my body could gradually catch up

I was put in a good foster home, the dad was a real jerk but i dont hold grudges. I had already forgiven my real parents I am not able to stay mad at someone trust me I have tried. I had 4 good years although I had medical issues they werent that bad but then I got cancer luekemia, its a deadly blood cancer. Cancer of course is no joy ride, you have to go through so much stuff like radiation and chemo therapy you get stuck with needles a whole lot and you get more medical issues from the radiation and it damages your body. I had it for four years but finally it was in remission meaning its basically asleep but can come back at any time. to this day I still suffer from the cancer and the damage it did to my body, I have many health issue I received another dose of brain damage and I now have diabetes. I even for some reason get this horrible pain in my nerves and bones.

People say I am brave and strong for fighting and beating cancer, but im not because I didnt do anything it was all because of the doctors help that I am even alive. there were a couple times i almost died and they saved me. all I did was put up with it.

I eventually graduated high school but because I cant drive due to the brain damage I cannot go to work as there is not a place to work in walking distance and plus I have trouble remembering simple things and following simple commands. So I live with my mom and in all likely hood will for the rest of my life because I have no way of earning money and cant live on my own. But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

Aww, I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this, but in God's eye you are worth more than gold!! And he loves you!!!

 

[GOP]

I havent made a testimony because ppl hardly even read testimonies let alone post in them but I figured I might as well.
I guess it begins when I was with my mom and dad, as a young kid as long as I could remember they were always abusive and starved me severely. I was always hungry and I was treated like a slave, I did all sorts of chores and for no reason at all they would hurt me. I had to clean the carpet with nothing but water and a tooth brush and they hit me a lot. I remember they would sit in a circle and I had to take my pants off and one by one they would stab my in the but with a sowing needle. there was one time they made me eat a cockroach another they made me eat my sisters poop another they made me drink my uncles throw up.

There was another time my mom cut my bottom with a knife and said the blood coming out was demons and scared me. my mom would sometimes make special pancakes for me, she would make pancakes crunch up lots of pills and say they were sprinkles and drench it in syrup. I knew I would black out if i ate it but i never get to eat good so I did it no problem.

Basically I had a terrible child hood, and I dont even remember the worst parts, when I was taken away at age eight apparently my parents spilled the beans of all they did and I was put in a foster home. my foster mom still wont tell me the parts I dont remember she said it was to gruesome and horrible for me to handle all i know is that they sexually abused me and lots of horrible things that my mind apparently cant remember because they starved me so bad and they drugged so much that I somehow had brain damage. at the age of eight I was the size of a four year old due to not being fed good so I had to eat a whole lot so my body could gradually catch up

I was put in a good foster home, the dad was a real jerk but i dont hold grudges. I had already forgiven my real parents I am not able to stay mad at someone trust me I have tried. I had 4 good years although I had medical issues they werent that bad but then I got cancer luekemia, its a deadly blood cancer. Cancer of course is no joy ride, you have to go through so much stuff like radiation and chemo therapy you get stuck with needles a whole lot and you get more medical issues from the radiation and it damages your body. I had it for four years but finally it was in remission meaning its basically asleep but can come back at any time. to this day I still suffer from the cancer and the damage it did to my body, I have many health issue I received another dose of brain damage and I now have diabetes. I even for some reason get this horrible pain in my nerves and bones.

People say I am brave and strong for fighting and beating cancer, but im not because I didnt do anything it was all because of the doctors help that I am even alive. there were a couple times i almost died and they saved me. all I did was put up with it.

I eventually graduated high school but because I cant drive due to the brain damage I cannot go to work as there is not a place to work in walking distance and plus I have trouble remembering simple things and following simple commands. So I live with my mom and in all likely hood will for the rest of my life because I have no way of earning money and cant live on my own. But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

You have gone through a lot. You are so precious to GOD ALMIGHTY our FATHER. You will live and testify HIS Goodness, Faithfulness and Love upon your life. Please read this verse and speak it to your life many times. Psalms 118:17. Remember, the LORD is watching over HIS WORD to perform it.

Please just say this from your heart and don't doubt it: "In the Name of JESUS CHRIST of Nazareth, I command you spirit of cancer and diabetes to come out of my body. Every unclean spirit come out of my body. Every organs of my body that is not functioning well, I command you to function perfectly well in JESUS' NAME. Thank You LORD, I am healed. I am freed." Please say this many times a day. A prayer of Faith can be repeatedly as many times as possible.

 

[Noblemen]

I am sorry you have had to endure such pain.
You are very special to go through such a thing as this and be a light for us all. Just as Jesus you will be one that our Father can trust to endure heart ache and pain, you bring glory to God your Father.

 

[Waggles]

But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

Hallelujah praise Jesus.

The promise is that you will get a new body for the eternities that
will never know pain or sorrow, nor any more crying.
No more disease. All will be new.

Rejoice!

 

[Angelique]

I have read your testimony. I am so sorry all that happened to you. I thought about it several days. Keep the focus on your beautiful future. God will take away every tear and bad memories.

Much love,
Angelique

 

[Loveyou]

Blain, that is such a heartbreaking story . But Jesus can heal you ! You can do all things in Christ who strengthens you ! I pray for a complete healing of your body , mind and soul in the name of Jesus Christ ! Amen . You are an amazing person and a survivor. Blessings to you

 

[Loveyou]

Keep praying for healing and have others pray over you . God works miracles . Just have faith ! Prayer works ! I love you and God loves you

 

[Marshmellow]

that was a very heartbreaking that you went through all this, i am sorry that happened to you. You did not deserve all the abuse from them but you forgave them which not many will. You hold nothing back and for you to be able to post about your experiences and open up is very touching. It was not the doctors what made u live it was GOD who wanted you to live. I am happy you are in a safer place and environment now. Your life will turn around i pray that GOD releases his blessings upon you and that all your weaknesses will become your strength in and that that your mind will be healed in Jesus name.

 

[mj89]

just read most comments first page and here,all pages betwenn not(neither time and or wifi,etc)first had distrust(cause not only but especially through web lots of person spreed weird stuff...came to this post guess not by accident cause i not long registred here,saw the user on an other page i wrote before and then was wondering about other person s testimonies here...well, to be honest and direct: if true then it sounds whole family attacked and or by free will in some loges an circles activity involved!(not the highest ones,only perverted deep version it seems.the most dangerous are very smart organisized worldwide and more ideologic and even more calculaed tortue etc.)and then s NOT healthy(thread from 2014 but not sure blain still live at mothers house?)to stay there,even in usa is too many wellsituated christians they SHALl help you,make sure you have own place,etc!bible is clear about company and active compassion for others..!might some other chrstians find access to your family and if chosen or not: at least they tried.otherwise some of them shall get arrested cause crime is crime.may we all recognize the lines from religiousity and real fellowship more...
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and have to admit i appreciate how you write to each other here,seems friendly and compassionated.glad foudn yesterday this forum!otehrwise most notchristianwebsites involved...but through web we can also be a blessing for others or at least a sign for and with god!

 

[Blain]

Yeah this thread was made a long time ago and I no longer live with my mom. I will admit that I am still pretty damaged both inside and outside from my past and have yet to be healed but in all honesty while I always hope and pray for healing at the same time I am grateful for both the inner and outer wounds and scars I bear because I am able to connect and help others who have known that same kind of pain. Everyone who has posted in this thread has been so kind and has prayed for my healing and blessed me with kind words that i feel I do not deserve but I want everyone to not worry because yes I have suffered and have been through much pain but I have seen God use my pain to work healing in others lives and that alone makes every scar and every bruise I have ever gone through worth it to me.
It is not my healing I want to see it's the healing of others especially the inner healing that is so needed and if he is willing to use my own pain and suffering to do that then I am more than willing. I have noticed how we humans seem to connect and understand each other most through suffering and pain.Through the tears of that inner cut of not being loved or cared about, through the anguish of losing everything even your loved ones and being isolated, through the pain and the constant swelling of the damaged body, through the loss of a treasured child and crying out in anguish with agony of the heart and soul that no parent should ever have to go through.... I ponder about these things all the time almost as if I myself feel them, I feel a sense of empathy even if i myself have never gone through something. It is the pain I see in peoples hearts that makes my pain nothing in my eyes because like I said it is their healing that i seek not my own and it was only because I suffered so much in life that I am this way and see with these eyes.

I do not believe in accidents or coincidences and do not question why i had to go through all i did or why i go through what i do now because just from this thread alone I have seen the healing that can be done through pain

 

[EmilyFoster]

Thanks for sharing your testimony with us, Blaine. My went out to you as I read about the terrible childhood and the struggles you have been facing. God works in amazing ways, and He has a perfect plan for your life. I’m praying that He will surround you with His infinite love, care and strength. May He bring in healing, open doors for you to find work and give you guidance as you trust in Him.

 

[DustyRhodes]

I havent made a testimony because ppl hardly even read testimonies let alone post in them but I figured I might as well.
I guess it begins when I was with my mom and dad, as a young kid as long as I could remember they were always abusive and starved me severely. I was always hungry and I was treated like a slave, I did all sorts of chores and for no reason at all they would hurt me. I had to clean the carpet with nothing but water and a tooth brush and they hit me a lot. I remember they would sit in a circle and I had to take my pants off and one by one they would stab my in the but with a sowing needle. there was one time they made me eat a cockroach another they made me eat my sisters poop another they made me drink my uncles throw up.

There was another time my mom cut my bottom with a knife and said the blood coming out was demons and scared me. my mom would sometimes make special pancakes for me, she would make pancakes crunch up lots of pills and say they were sprinkles and drench it in syrup. I knew I would black out if i ate it but i never get to eat good so I did it no problem.

Basically I had a terrible child hood, and I dont even remember the worst parts, when I was taken away at age eight apparently my parents spilled the beans of all they did and I was put in a foster home. my foster mom still wont tell me the parts I dont remember she said it was to gruesome and horrible for me to handle all i know is that they sexually abused me and lots of horrible things that my mind apparently cant remember because they starved me so bad and they drugged so much that I somehow had brain damage. at the age of eight I was the size of a four year old due to not being fed good so I had to eat a whole lot so my body could gradually catch up

I was put in a good foster home, the dad was a real jerk but i dont hold grudges. I had already forgiven my real parents I am not able to stay mad at someone trust me I have tried. I had 4 good years although I had medical issues they werent that bad but then I got cancer luekemia, its a deadly blood cancer. Cancer of course is no joy ride, you have to go through so much stuff like radiation and chemo therapy you get stuck with needles a whole lot and you get more medical issues from the radiation and it damages your body. I had it for four years but finally it was in remission meaning its basically asleep but can come back at any time. to this day I still suffer from the cancer and the damage it did to my body, I have many health issue I received another dose of brain damage and I now have diabetes. I even for some reason get this horrible pain in my nerves and bones.

People say I am brave and strong for fighting and beating cancer, but im not because I didnt do anything it was all because of the doctors help that I am even alive. there were a couple times i almost died and they saved me. all I did was put up with it.

I eventually graduated high school but because I cant drive due to the brain damage I cannot go to work as there is not a place to work in walking distance and plus I have trouble remembering simple things and following simple commands. So I live with my mom and in all likely hood will for the rest of my life because I have no way of earning money and cant live on my own. But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

Thanks for sharing that Blain. With all of your extreme mistreatment
and health issues, you still accepted God where some would have
blamed Him. It is with sorrow that I read it but unfortunately the
world is not a perfect place. May peace and love bring you whatever
joy is possible in your situation. I can't imagine growing up as you did,

Long ago on this site I posted a blog, I'm not sure if it still exists
with this new format. In short though, I had a heart attack that
had a very low survival percentage but I survived. Five years later I
had a cardiac arrest driving down the road. A cardiac arrest is not
survivable without special circumstances. In my case a couple
driving behind me pulled over to help and at the very same time,
a police car was coming down the hill. The policeman radioed an
ambulance and started CPR. By fortune or as I believe by miracle
an ambulance was a block away. The were there within a minute
or so and resusitated me with electric paddles and brought me to
life. Soon after cardiologist implanted same time of paddles in
miniture in my heart and they would shock me when my heart
would stop. I had those for about 15 years or so. Eventually my
heart got so weak it was useless. They then asked me if I would
consider a heart transplant. Without hesitation I said yes. I felt
it wasn't even an option. So that happened, I got the heart
transplant 11 years ago. So now I'm 73 and full of life. I am so
grateful to God, He brought me through so much. Again thanks
for your comment and I will pray for you and we trust that God
is with you eternally.

 

[oldethennew]

WOW Dust,
this is almost to hard to believe..?

 

[Blain]

Thanks for sharing that Blain. With all of your extreme mistreatment
and health issues, you still accepted God where some would have
blamed Him. It is with sorrow that I read it but unfortunately the
world is not a perfect place. May peace and love bring you whatever
joy is possible in your situation. I can't imagine growing up as you did,

Long ago on this site I posted a blog, I'm not sure if it still exists
with this new format. In short though, I had a heart attack that
had a very low survival percentage but I survived. Five years later I
had a cardiac arrest driving down the road. A cardiac arrest is not
survivable without special circumstances. In my case a couple
driving behind me pulled over to help and at the very same time,
a police car was coming down the hill. The policeman radioed an
ambulance and started CPR. By fortune or as I believe by miracle
an ambulance was a block away. The were there within a minute
or so and resusitated me with electric paddles and brought me to
life. Soon after cardiologist implanted same time of paddles in
miniture in my heart and they would shock me when my heart
would stop. I had those for about 15 years or so. Eventually my
heart got so weak it was useless. They then asked me if I would
consider a heart transplant. Without hesitation I said yes. I felt
it wasn't even an option. So that happened, I got the heart
transplant 11 years ago. So now I'm 73 and full of life. I am so
grateful to God, He brought me through so much. Again thanks
for your comment and I will pray for you and we trust that God
is with you eternally.

Oh wow that is amazing God clearly was not going to let you bite the dust that easily lol

 

[DustyRhodes]

WOW Dust,
this is almost to hard to believe..?

thanks for the comment...it is incredible and miraculous in
my opinion...I am forever grateful to God because most of
all the happened without my asking Him to heal me, that
is how dedicated He is to His children...thanks again

 

[GabeNavarette]

Blain, I have endured many of the things mentioned in your testimony: Cancer, mental, physical and emotional abuse, and I just want you to know that you are not alone. I know exactly how it feels to not be loved by the ones who physically made you. But, the one who formed you in your mother's womb, the One who knew every detail of your life before it even happened, loves you. Acknowledging this at a young age helped me through my abuse at the hands of my dad, I reminded myself every day, "when I die, at least I'm going to heaven. At least I won't have to see him anymore." That really played into my story with suicide.

My point is this: People may say heinous things to you; they may belittle you; they may abuse you; they may scar you; but God doesn't look at any of that. He knows what you are: You are His chosen, you are His beloved, you are His treasured, you are His beautiful. It doesn't matter what others might say, focus on what I Am says you are.

"I am who I Am says I am." I say that to myself every day, reminding me that I am what He says I am. Reminding myself that nothing else matters. Reminding myself that I am special.

You are, too. Never forget that. Ever.

Stay strong and God Bless,
Gabe N.

 

[Blain]

Blain, I have endured many of the things mentioned in your testimony: Cancer, mental, physical and emotional abuse, and I just want you to know that you are not alone. I know exactly how it feels to not be loved by the ones who physically made you. But, the one who formed you in your mother's womb, the One who knew every detail of your life before it even happened, loves you. Acknowledging this at a young age helped me through my abuse at the hands of my dad, I reminded myself every day, "when I die, at least I'm going to heaven. At least I won't have to see him anymore." That really played into my story with suicide.

My point is this: People may say heinous things to you; they may belittle you; they may abuse you; they may scar you; but God doesn't look at any of that. He knows what you are: You are His chosen, you are His beloved, you are His treasured, you are His beautiful. It doesn't matter what others might say, focus on what I Am says you are.

"I am who I Am says I am." I say that to myself every day, reminding me that I am what He says I am. Reminding myself that nothing else matters. Reminding myself that I am special.

You are, too. Never forget that. Ever.

Stay strong and God Bless,
Gabe N.

I have always said wisdom is by no means limited by age and you are evidence of this

 

[truceforjesus]

I havent made a testimony because ppl hardly even read testimonies let alone post in them but I figured I might as well.
I guess it begins when I was with my mom and dad, as a young kid as long as I could remember they were always abusive and starved me severely. I was always hungry and I was treated like a slave, I did all sorts of chores and for no reason at all they would hurt me. I had to clean the carpet with nothing but water and a tooth brush and they hit me a lot. I remember they would sit in a circle and I had to take my pants off and one by one they would stab my in the but with a sowing needle. there was one time they made me eat a cockroach another they made me eat my sisters poop another they made me drink my uncles throw up.

There was another time my mom cut my bottom with a knife and said the blood coming out was demons and scared me. my mom would sometimes make special pancakes for me, she would make pancakes crunch up lots of pills and say they were sprinkles and drench it in syrup. I knew I would black out if i ate it but i never get to eat good so I did it no problem.

Basically I had a terrible child hood, and I dont even remember the worst parts, when I was taken away at age eight apparently my parents spilled the beans of all they did and I was put in a foster home. my foster mom still wont tell me the parts I dont remember she said it was to gruesome and horrible for me to handle all i know is that they sexually abused me and lots of horrible things that my mind apparently cant remember because they starved me so bad and they drugged so much that I somehow had brain damage. at the age of eight I was the size of a four year old due to not being fed good so I had to eat a whole lot so my body could gradually catch up

I was put in a good foster home, the dad was a real jerk but i dont hold grudges. I had already forgiven my real parents I am not able to stay mad at someone trust me I have tried. I had 4 good years although I had medical issues they werent that bad but then I got cancer luekemia, its a deadly blood cancer. Cancer of course is no joy ride, you have to go through so much stuff like radiation and chemo therapy you get stuck with needles a whole lot and you get more medical issues from the radiation and it damages your body. I had it for four years but finally it was in remission meaning its basically asleep but can come back at any time. to this day I still suffer from the cancer and the damage it did to my body, I have many health issue I received another dose of brain damage and I now have diabetes. I even for some reason get this horrible pain in my nerves and bones.

People say I am brave and strong for fighting and beating cancer, but im not because I didnt do anything it was all because of the doctors help that I am even alive. there were a couple times i almost died and they saved me. all I did was put up with it.

I eventually graduated high school but because I cant drive due to the brain damage I cannot go to work as there is not a place to work in walking distance and plus I have trouble remembering simple things and following simple commands. So I live with my mom and in all likely hood will for the rest of my life because I have no way of earning money and cant live on my own. But anyways I was saved two years ago and it was the best decision I ever made, my family doesnt think I will ever amount to much or be anyone special but God says that I can and will

Please let me be the first(on earth) to say you have an Amazing Testimony, as I read it and thought I'd say something I have on my heart to tell you their are people up there in Heaven who are Praising our Heavenly Father for you and these ones (HALLELUIAH) go to Him often on your behalf. Praise Jesus my Dear Dear Brother, Praise His Wonderful Holy Name.
We will Soon be there my Brother, Soon and Very Soon we are going to See The King.
Bless you and Thanks for sharing .
Your Brother in Christ
Truce Dylan

See you there bro . Wow

 

[Bingo]

"Thank you for sharing. Amen. Sincere testimony from the heart can be witnessed when
one needs not to rely on scripture or that of quoting such, for a pure heart requires less
outside assistance. God bless you for sharing. You do have the ability to put your thoughts
and feelings in an orderly and understandable language, therefore you are more advanced
than might be expected. Our love of God's love is to share precisely that. It is felt that some
where in your life, a spiritual 'awareness' came about, as sometimes it can be over a period
of time, but we need to embrace it and be grateful of God's grace...I assure you I am.
Again, thank you for sharing, and thank you for being you."
'Praise God'

 

[Blain]

Please let me be the first(on earth) to say you have an Amazing Testimony, as I read it and thought I'd say something I have on my heart to tell you their are people up there in Heaven who are Praising our Heavenly Father for you and these ones (HALLELUIAH) go to Him often on your behalf. Praise Jesus my Dear Dear Brother, Praise His Wonderful Holy Name.
We will Soon be there my Brother, Soon and Very Soon we are going to See The King.
Bless you and Thanks for sharing .
Your Brother in Christ
Truce Dylan

See you there bro . Wow

First I would like to welcome you to cc being a new member and everything and Also thank you for your kind words maybe it's simply because a lot of times in order to really see ourselves it requires outside look of ourselves from the eyes of others but I honestly never felt my lifes testimony was worth near as much as everyone says and I guess I can tend to forget how God can use ones testimony