Oh My goodness!!
What a testimony! My heart both breaks and is rejoicing over this.
i am amazed by the depths of pain and darkness some of us must descend. How much a person can experience - it truly astonishes me - and I admire you for your courage and strength - that you did not give up and you kept on going.
I am so thankful that you did not give up hope and that there were resources finally available that were able to assist you in finding both God and salvation - and freedom.
I can only imagine how proud your Heavenly father is - how he was bragging on your 9 year anniversary - slapping jesus on the back and pointing down at you and being like "THATS OUR GIRL! LOOK AT HER GO! WE OUT-DID OURSELVES WHEN WE CREATED HER. DO YOU REMEMBER?" and they had a big party with you. ^_^
I am also very glad whenever I hear that people are beginning to understand challenges (mental and behavioral) that can be so instrumental in a persons daily life and struggles - well lets call them challenges. I am horrified when I research how those "psych wards" would treat their patients - how they would torture them.
Haha - now I want cake! lol
I am so glad your pastors where there to support you - it makes all the difference in the world.
I remember once going to an IHOP (international house of Prayer) in a city I was a missionary in, and it was closed so we gathered in the parking lot and sang praises to the Lord. We did not know that there was a NA meeting happening right there and they were all sitting outside and having a smoke.
So we went over and we started talking to everyone - asking if we could pray for them. And I met the sweetest girl. I asked if she owned a bible and she said she never had her own bible before - and I gave her mine - this bible was beloved and had all kinds of little scribbles in it - photos, card, letters - everything - I just gave it to her like that. I hope she got to see that the bible is the living word - that God is our dad and Jesus our best friend and I still pray for her sometimes. It's been 10 years now