I wouldn't say your wrong it is human nature to want your other half why do think God gave Adam eve? The reason we are to seek after him first is not just because it is his will but because he gives everything in doing so. The more we seek his heart the closer we become to him and know him, the more we become closer to him the more he molds and mends our hearts and you will find that he tends to give us what we lack in this process.Thank you so much. Maybe I'm resisting God for not wanting to submit to His plans ... I know how wrong I am, but I can't react yet... maybe it doesn't make sense.
It starts with baby steps, we begin to try to focus more on seeking him first then it becomes easier and easier and if you really put your heart into seeking to know him and to build that bond between each other it becomes easier and easier and soon enough it is no longer a task but a pleasure.
To know that intense hunger, to feel that thirst, to know that deep longing and craving for so much more of his heart and a much deeper intimacy with him.. There is absolutely nothing else like it and in this he has promised to give us the desires of our hearts the only thing is he has to be first that is all he asks