I guess it’s just if God exists, Hell exists.
For extreme good there has to be extreme bad.
For me, I could find comfort in God. Even if I struggle, he can help me find out things with Him. I guess sometimes I worry if I’m saved or not, but for the most part I want to dedicate my life to God, otherwise, life just seems to painful to want to try without good enough purpose in atheism. I’m a coward in that I want to avoid pain, and with God there is a reason for the pain, so I want to try.
I have hope with Him, but I just fear so much for unbelievers it makes me feel terrified that that can go to Hell. While many go to Hell, few go to Heaven and that terrifies me. More people go through eternal pain than eternal torment?
It makes me so terrified, and previously apart of me was upset at unbelievers, but now I feel so sad and miserable for them, because I don’t want them to end up with so much pain. Can I really seek God for rest, and have comfort in him trying to deal with my own addictions when people can be on the road to Hell? It’s hard to try to calm down, it’s hard to think there’s ever a relaxed point where every second, everything matters and there are such high stakes. I feel like I can never do enough to try to help.
And then in this worry, I also wonder, “How can I loving God send people to Hell?” I guess with all the talk of Hell, I think sometimes unbelievers may think God hates them, when that’s not the case, God died for us and sacrificed himself for us, out of love. Who would die for someone out of hatred?
Even despite this, I just want to question God why? Why do few have to go to heaven? Couldn’t he have made humans more loyal so we didn’t sin? Why does there have to be so much pain? Why did Adam and Eve ever have to sin?
I know I need God, without Him I get so confused and anxious in life, but worrying so much about others’ eternal punishment makes me frustrated with God at times even though he loves others too, much more than me, and even sent Jesus to sacrifice himself so we could even have a chance to be with Him and we never have to spend time in that awful place Hell.
I guess the fact that people will go to Hell, more than people going to heaven is inevitable just makes me so terrified. I love God, I shouldn’t question Him, I don’t even deserve to be saved, no one deserves to be saved to begin with because we’re all sinners but I find myself asking God so much, “did it really have to be this way? Do so much people have to suffer for eternity?”
Sometimes as horrible as it is, I think of what it would be like without God, I’d probably lose my mind because I wouldn’t have someone to rely on and things of this world are temporary, but people wouldn’t have to suffer for eternity.
These thoughts are so wrong, and that’s why I’m sharing them out, I don’t want to deal with them alone. I should love and thank God my own salvation.
I don’t care about universalism, or annihilationism. There is more proof for Hell being eternal pain than for these beliefs, so I don’t like lies to try to make people feel more comfortable. Lies about Hell just make it far worse, shouldn’t people be prepared. I even heard something about sinners having a second chance in reincarnation?! That is in no way biblical.
At the end, “it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks.” Acts 9:5
I can’t wish what Hell is away. Unbelievers get scared and try to ignore it, as if that’ll stop it, but I can’t fight against God, I can’t fight against truth. I keep doing it, but it only hurts me. I want to try to have a more full relationship with God, I don’t want to get mad or upset at him, being eager to help unbelievers is good, but I don’t want to be so angry at God I resort to escapism.
I don’t know better than God, who am I to question Him and say life has to be painless. I wish it was, but I don’t know best, he does, so I need to stop struggling. Even though I get so mad at God, I just want to hug Him, I want to be comforted and rely on him because my anger at Hell doesn’t change that I need him so much.
For extreme good there has to be extreme bad.
For me, I could find comfort in God. Even if I struggle, he can help me find out things with Him. I guess sometimes I worry if I’m saved or not, but for the most part I want to dedicate my life to God, otherwise, life just seems to painful to want to try without good enough purpose in atheism. I’m a coward in that I want to avoid pain, and with God there is a reason for the pain, so I want to try.
I have hope with Him, but I just fear so much for unbelievers it makes me feel terrified that that can go to Hell. While many go to Hell, few go to Heaven and that terrifies me. More people go through eternal pain than eternal torment?
It makes me so terrified, and previously apart of me was upset at unbelievers, but now I feel so sad and miserable for them, because I don’t want them to end up with so much pain. Can I really seek God for rest, and have comfort in him trying to deal with my own addictions when people can be on the road to Hell? It’s hard to try to calm down, it’s hard to think there’s ever a relaxed point where every second, everything matters and there are such high stakes. I feel like I can never do enough to try to help.
And then in this worry, I also wonder, “How can I loving God send people to Hell?” I guess with all the talk of Hell, I think sometimes unbelievers may think God hates them, when that’s not the case, God died for us and sacrificed himself for us, out of love. Who would die for someone out of hatred?
Even despite this, I just want to question God why? Why do few have to go to heaven? Couldn’t he have made humans more loyal so we didn’t sin? Why does there have to be so much pain? Why did Adam and Eve ever have to sin?
I know I need God, without Him I get so confused and anxious in life, but worrying so much about others’ eternal punishment makes me frustrated with God at times even though he loves others too, much more than me, and even sent Jesus to sacrifice himself so we could even have a chance to be with Him and we never have to spend time in that awful place Hell.
I guess the fact that people will go to Hell, more than people going to heaven is inevitable just makes me so terrified. I love God, I shouldn’t question Him, I don’t even deserve to be saved, no one deserves to be saved to begin with because we’re all sinners but I find myself asking God so much, “did it really have to be this way? Do so much people have to suffer for eternity?”
Sometimes as horrible as it is, I think of what it would be like without God, I’d probably lose my mind because I wouldn’t have someone to rely on and things of this world are temporary, but people wouldn’t have to suffer for eternity.
These thoughts are so wrong, and that’s why I’m sharing them out, I don’t want to deal with them alone. I should love and thank God my own salvation.
I don’t care about universalism, or annihilationism. There is more proof for Hell being eternal pain than for these beliefs, so I don’t like lies to try to make people feel more comfortable. Lies about Hell just make it far worse, shouldn’t people be prepared. I even heard something about sinners having a second chance in reincarnation?! That is in no way biblical.
At the end, “it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks.” Acts 9:5
I can’t wish what Hell is away. Unbelievers get scared and try to ignore it, as if that’ll stop it, but I can’t fight against God, I can’t fight against truth. I keep doing it, but it only hurts me. I want to try to have a more full relationship with God, I don’t want to get mad or upset at him, being eager to help unbelievers is good, but I don’t want to be so angry at God I resort to escapism.
I don’t know better than God, who am I to question Him and say life has to be painless. I wish it was, but I don’t know best, he does, so I need to stop struggling. Even though I get so mad at God, I just want to hug Him, I want to be comforted and rely on him because my anger at Hell doesn’t change that I need him so much.
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