I'm afraid to go back to God....?

selenah · May 3, 2011

I've been a Christian my whole life, but a while ago I started getting really excited (more than I had ever been before) about God. It got to the point where I could hardly wait to read my Bible and talk to and about God. Well, I started questioning God and doubting Him. It was like I went from being a super strong Christian to someone who was on the edge of rejecting God completely (more than I had ever been before). Right now I'm in the middle, and I'm afraid to go back to God because I'm afraid I will end up repeating the same thing over again. I know I need to be closer to God, but I have no heart to. What should I do?

livingbygrace · May 3, 2011

selenah said:

I wouldn't say your experiance is different from many others. The closer you come to God, the harder someone is going to try by any means to get you to doubt and give up with God

I would suggest reading a book on faith, (if someone could suggest a relevant book)
It is faith that is our shield against the firey arrows aimed at us

As to being afraid to go back to God for the reason given. You need to recognise your enemy and who is putting those thoughts in your mind

One other thing. It is not easy at your age, but you have known God, I can tell you with absolute assurity from personal experiance if you turn away you will never be happy until the day you return to Christ's loving arms

He loves you more than anyone ever could including your parents, he wants you to run back to him, he is there with open arms, and he always will be, no matter how many times you mess up, and we all do you know

AnandaHya · May 3, 2011

Read your Bible and trust in God's love!

YouTube - Casting Crowns - East to West

Dear Lord: Please help our sister in Christ and strengthen her shield of Faith. She can't bear to see the woman she had been rising up again. But you know how far the East is from the West. One scarred hand to another. We can't live by what we feel but the Truth you have revealed. Please continue to hold on to us. For we are not holding onto you but YOUR GRACE and Mercy has saved us. please keep us safe and show us Your plan for our lives. In Jesus name we pray, amen

But your [You're] holding on to me
Your [You're] holding on to me
[last chorus
Jesus, you know just how far
The East is from the West
I don't have to see the man I've been
Come rising up in me again
In the arms of your mercy I find rest
(The arms of your mercy I find rest)
Cause you know just how far the East is from the West
From one scar[r]ed hand to the other(x2)

(Just how far, the East is from the West) (x3)

From one scarred hand to the other

Red33 · May 3, 2011

selenah said:

Every Christian needs to have a local assembly of believers they can gather with that love God and will build you up in that love. Having fellowship with other believers and hearing the word of God being preached will give the encouragment you need to have the kind of relationship with God that is in your heart. Remember that as believers we walk by faith and learn how to continually trust God even when our outward circumstances are not what we would like them to be. God will always be faithful to us and will never leave or forsake us in any situation. His love is unconditional and Christ has paid for all our sins. God's strength is always revealed in the greatest way when we are at our weakest.

wakeup · May 3, 2011

selenah said:

I've been a Christian my whole life, but a while ago I started getting really excited (more than I had ever been before) about God. It got to the point where I could hardly wait to read my Bible and talk to and about God. Well, I started questioning God and doubting Him. It was like I went from being a super strong Christian to someone who was on the edge of rejecting God completely (more than I had ever been before). Right now I'm in the middle, and I'm afraid to go back to God because I'm afraid I will end up repeating the same thing over again. I know I need to be closer to God, but I have no heart to. What should I do?

No one can come to the father unless the father draws him.

Crazy4GODword · May 3, 2011

I definitely know what you are talking about, also definitely about repeating thing as well....i have been there, and it doesn't feel real good inside out....but i made it past that level, it was a work to get to understand.

unclefester · May 3, 2011

selenah said:

Don't be afraid Selenah. God isn't the big bully in the sky. He knows and understands your doubts and fears. Every single one of us has experienced them at one point or another.....some still do. He patiently waits in love and will open His door the very second you knock. It's not your "feelings" or how "good" you feel on any given day that determines if God is walking with you. Ask Christ for forgiveness for your sins and ask Him to dwell within your heart......and He surely will do both. And He will carry you through life's difficult periods even when you don't think that He is. Let not your heart be troubled. God loves you beyond what you could ever imagine. You can believe and trust in that

wakeup · May 3, 2011

Red33 said:

Millions of people came together to celebrate the beatification of pope john the2nd.
They all think they are doing the right thing,and truly have faith,and pray to God,they are prisoners and they dont know it. They are captives and dont know it.This can only happen when you belong to A church; Masses of people being deceived. This is what we must avoid. Thats why we all must seek, so we can not be deceived. Satan has gone in the churches,he is interested in deceiving the masses,not too interested in you and me,his boys will do that part.Having solid knowledge is the answer; Satan tempted Jesus, but did not succeed,because of Jesus knowledge of the scriptures. Satan is playing a smart game; the game of infiltrating; Join the enemy,go in and slowly corrupt,step by step,inch by inch,we wont even notice,unless we have strong knowledge. THen we must be strong enough,to say to the church; oh no you dont, enough is enough,I am out; This will be the hardest thing to do,because we are so used to the routine,and friends and families. Never forgetting this scripture'; He who loves father, and mother, and brothers, and sisters, more than me is not worthy of me.
The truth above all.
''wakeup''.

unclefester · May 3, 2011

wakeup said:

This is how you approach a frightened 15 yr. old child with "God's love" ? Satan...Satan...Satan (three times in this post) topped off with the ole' tried and true "He who loves father, and mother, and brothers, and sisters, more than me is not worthy of me." Maybe there's more you can find to frighten her even further ? Nice job of spreading Christ's unconditional love for all of us .....let alone to a frightened 15 yr. old girl. Truly unbelievable.....and sickening.

wisdomseeker · May 3, 2011

selenah said:

I've been a Christian my whole life, but a while ago I started getting really excited (more than I had ever been before) about God. It got to the point where I could hardly wait to read my Bible and talk to and about God. Well, I started questioning God and doubting Him. It was like I went from being a super strong Christian to someone who was on the edge of rejecting God completely (more than I had ever been before). Right now I'm in the middle, and I'm afraid to go back to God because I'm afraid I will end up repeating the same thing over again. I know I need to be closer to God, but I have no heart to. What should I do?

read the parable of the sower The Book of Matthew, Chapter 13

Love a friend in God

pickles · May 4, 2011

selenah said:

First, dont be discouraged or afraid.
God Our Father is bringing the gift of perfect faith to you.
Been there and understand.
At first I felt like you do, went through alot of confusion and fear, untill I finally believed, no matter what , as I put it.

Keep believing in faith, in Jesus, God Our Father will bring through His Holy Spirit a faith that is like
a mountain, strong and unshakable.

You will have many times where you struggle, but keep the faith.
The gift of faith is one of the most perfect gifts you will know in Jesus.
Ive always loved what Paul said , " I have fought the hard battle, I have run the race, I have kept the faith!
He also in 1 corr. chapter 4 and 5 spoke to how although being assalted by doubt, keeping faith.
Dont let fear steal Gods Gift to you, trust in Jesus, keep the faith!

Hugs and God bless.
pickles

resurrection33 · May 4, 2011

selenah said:

I've been a Christian my whole life, but a while ago I started getting really excited (more than I had ever been before) about God. It got to the point where I could hardly wait to read my Bible and talk to and about God. Well, I started questioning God and doubting Him. It was like I went from being a super strong Christian to someone who was on the edge of rejecting God completely (more than I had ever been before). Right now I'm in the middle, and I'm afraid to go back to God because I'm afraid I will end up repeating the same thing over again. I know I need to be closer to God, but I have no heart to. What should I do?

The first and great commandment is to love the Lord our God with all our hearts, minds, and souls. I would start there.

WordGaurdian · May 4, 2011

Hi there. I don't really know you yet, but it seems you are in trouble. I'm going to give you a message which might not always make sense, but I hope you can take something from it. God is training you. The disciples first had to watch Jesus do miracles, Then do miracles with Him, and then do it alone. He isz trying to teach you how to trust in Him regardless of your feelings. The days you feel you don't want to go pray or do Biblestudy is a test against your resolve. Job had to go through the same. Believe in Him. He does this to take you out of your comfort zone so that you can see the people in need around you. The people that don't have what you have in Christ. So you can better understand them and draw a bridge between the Gospel and them. Here is a few pieces of advice. First : Pray more fervently, so you can build your own faith. Second rely on God by listening to His voice. If you don't know how, learn or ask. Third - don't lower your moral standards, raise them. Lastly pray for humility and peace. For they will make you strong in a spiritual battle. WordGaurdian.

zone · May 4, 2011

selenah said:

Hi kiddo

don't be afraid.
and don't listen to pharisees.
The Lord isn't "testing" you. Jesus passed the only test that counts.

Luke 15
The Parable of the Lost Sheep
1 Now the tax collectors and sinners were all drawing near to hear him. 2 And the Pharisees and the scribes grumbled, saying, “This man receives sinners and eats with them.”

3 So he told them this parable: 4 “What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost, until he finds it? 5 And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders, rejoicing. 6And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and his neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.’ 7 Just so, I tell you, there will be more joy in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who need no repentance.

John 10:28
I give them eternal life, and they will never perish, and no one will snatch them out of my hand.

NoahsMom · May 4, 2011

I agree with fester , Every single one of us has experienced them at one point or another.....some still do. He patiently waits in love and will open His door the very second you knock. Amen.

basschick · May 4, 2011

I know exactly what you mean by being all for God one day, then getting to the point where you're just about the opposite. It's happened to me a few times in my life

Relatively recently I reached a place where I was about to turn my back on God and literally had my coat in my hand and was on the way out the door to do something I would have regretted forever; but I had a friend call me at just the right time to remind me that God is always in control and of His faithfulness. She also challenged me to give Him another chance, and put forth a sincere effort in building a strong relationship with Him. That is one 3 hour phone call I will never forget!
God never said that it would be easy following Him, just that He'll be with us through it all and that in the end our faithfulness with be worth it

He knows all of our struggles and all of our doubts and hurts. Despite all of it and all the trash we put Him though He is constantly waiting with open arms and all we have to do is reach out and call on Him

I understand that the pattern of behavior can be discouraging, but there's only one way to break the cycle and that is to try again!!! You can do it!!! Rely on Christ's strength and anything is possible! It may take just one more shot, it may take several more tries, but your perseverance will certainly be worth it! If I can be of any help or if you need any encouragement feel free to message me anytime

Deadflesh · May 4, 2011

selenah said:

Repent. As "mean" as that might sound. Satan has goten you to be blinded. Either in an unforgiveness torwards someone(family, friend) Or somthign you did that you shouldnt have, you must cry out for repentance EVERYTIME we do somthign wrong. If you cant repent, you feel like somthig nsi blockign you, Cry out for repentance. Ask God to pour out his repentance on you. GOD Grants repentance, we dont technically have it on our own(2 Timothy 2:25) Ask him for it. adn then repent. Repent EVEERY singl time you do somthign that you know is wrong ,ad nif you arent sure, ask hi mto give you wisdom, Jesus said we dont have becasue we dont ask. ASK fro wisdom, and knowledge STRAIGHT fro mthe source, Our Lord Jesus Christ. Jesus is our advocate, Satan is our advasary.

Almost like Jesus is our defence attorney, and Satan is our prosecution. AS Good of a lawyer as Satan can be. Chrsit JEsus ALLREADY won the case. So repent. confess, and the nJesus will cover you in the Blood of himself, adn say "Yeah, I got this one...flee Satan. You have no more evidence agaisnt her"

But its SOOO important to seek Jesus, and repent in ALL things. Jesus forgives you, and covers you EVERYSINGLE TIME. But repentance means you turn 180 degrees. Jsut keep cryign out to him, We need to. I needed to when i was goign through simmialr thigns. its a process, but if you continuously do this, it will be automatic. I hope that helps a bit. Jesus bless you.

MaggieMye · May 5, 2011

I know I need to be closer to God, but I have no heart to. What should I do? Scripture tells us that when we ask within His will, and if we believe, we will receive. So ASK!! Ask Him for hunger and thirst for Him and His word. ASK Him to put His passion IN YOU; ASK Him to put a craving for His word into you and to give you understanding when you read His word.

AND READ IT EVERY DAY.....just pray before you do and you will be amazed at how much things will change in your walk.

Maggie

Vladimir_Ukr · May 5, 2011

It's no wonder, I think I have this is verse for you:
do not understand what I do. For
what I want to do I do not do, but what I
hate I do( Romans 7:15)
This is words apostol Paul.
All will be OK as a written in the Bible:
So do not fear, for I am with you; do
not be dismayed, for I am your God. I
will strengthen you and help you; I will
uphold you with my righteous right hand.( Isaiah 41:10).
Don't worry, Selenah.
I will be pray for you.

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