A thread of Blain's Psalms

Blain · Aug 7, 2020

If I am understanding this correctly I am not seeking praise from anyone everyone knows that the glory is for God, I always make it clear that God is the words I am just the pen. It isn't like I could write this kind of stuff because if I did then the poems wouldn't have made the impact they have on people.

Blain · Aug 7, 2020

The thing is I never intended for this poem to be about or for me but when the spirit takes over I don't get a say in what is written. But he is well aware of the pain and usffering I have been going through and how it has affected me, I am filled with worry and fear and could not connect to him very well and just longed to be with him in the way we were before.
I want others to be healed and encouraged by these poems but I know that sometimes the poems can be inner healing for me as well. If anything I hope it gives people an idea of what awaits us

Lion222 · Aug 7, 2020

Blain said:

Never said you where seeking anything brother.
But getting it has this effect.

http://www.prophetichorizons.com/2009/06/humility-place-of-power-by-garris.html

Blain · Aug 7, 2020

Lion222 said:

Honestly I had to look up that verse and the text made me think something else and I apologize for misunderstanding. But yes it does do that which is why it is always important to make sure the glory is to God.

Blain · Sep 4, 2020

A poem for my dear friend Magenta who is cured of her cancer

Praise the Lord all the nations and marvel at the might of our God for in his love and with his might he snatched the rod of death and disease, in his faithfulness and the promise of his word has he taken the blot of of the enemies will.
For a treasured soul had suffered and many in unity were for her, as a sweet smelling purfume has the Lord heard his childrens cries, as a smoke of of delicious meat has he seen their hearts in unity and is pleased.
For if he is for us who can stand against? If we are his then what can befall us? Sing the thunder of our joy and praise to he that sits on the throne blessed be the Lord for he has won over death, suffer no more cherished one for you have earned his pride, in your suffering you did not falter and in your trials you shined his love.
Listen and hear, come and see the goodness of our king how he graciously gives to those who seek him, how he blesses the pure of heart and soul for beauty and marvel is his name and in his right hand he upholds the righteous and death shall not overcome nor shall sickness bear it's mark

I shall lift my kings name to the heavens and and will give the glory he has shown, for my heart was troubled and in worry sadness and greif had gripped my soul and I came before the throne in grieving and he who sits on the throne knew my hearts intent before I came to him he who is everlasting had already set into motion that which I request. The praise which I could give for the wonder he has done cannot be expressed for it would not sate nor would it quench, the hand of the Lord is over her and I thank and praise my father for her creation and for what he has done for her.

Let the wonders of his love show even so and let his power be known to all the nations lift your hearts to him dear ones for he is a keeper of promises

Lafftur · Sep 4, 2020

Blain said:

A poem for my dear friend Magenta who is cured of her cancer

Praise the Lord all the nations and marvel at the might of our God for in his love and with his might he snatched the rod of death and disease, in his faithfulness and the promise of his word has he taken the blot of of the enemies will.
For a treasured soul had suffered and many in unity were for her, as a sweet smelling purfume has the Lord heard his childrens cries, as a smoke of of delicious meat has he seen their hearts in unity and is pleased.
For if he is for us who can stand against? If we are his then what can befall us? Sing the thunder of our joy and praise to he that sits on the throne blessed be the Lord for he has won over death, suffer no more cherished one for you have earned his pride, in your suffering you did not falter and in your trials you shined his love.
Listen and hear, come and see the goodness of our king how he graciously gives to those who seek him, how he blesses the pure of heart and soul for beauty and marvel is his name and in his right hand he upholds the righteous and death shall not overcome nor shall sickness bear it's mark

I shall lift my kings name to the heavens and and will give the glory he has shown, for my heart was troubled and in worry sadness and greif had gripped my soul and I came before the throne in grieving and he who sits on the throne knew my hearts intent before I came to him he who is everlasting had already set into motion that which I request. The praise which I could give for the wonder he has done cannot be expressed for it would not sate nor would it quench, the hand of the Lord is over her and I thank and praise my father for her creation and for what he has done for her.

Let the wonders of his love show even so and let his power be known to all the nations lift your hearts to him dear ones for he is a keeper of promises

Hallelujah! Halleluah! Yay!!!!! Praise the Lord!!! Rejoicing with you over @Magenta!!! Wooohooo!!!

God is worthy of all our praise!!! This poem is such a BEAUTIFUL display of love and thankfulness to God! Hallelujah!

Magenta · Sep 4, 2020

Lafftur said:

Amen, all praise and glory to our loving, mighty God and King

oldethennew · Sep 5, 2020

Magenta said:

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AMEN!!!
1PETER 2:24.
Who His own self bare our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins,
should live unto righteousness: by Whose stripes you were healed.

Lafftur · Sep 11, 2020

Oh, Blaaaaain........where are you?!

The Bride of Christ needs some beautiful words spoken to her from Heaven........

We need another amazing Psalm to feed our spirits and souls............

May the Lord fill you up so, you can pour out God's blessing to all of us, in the Name of Jesus Christ, amen!

We love and appreciate you and miss you!

Blain · Sep 11, 2020

Lafftur said:

Sorry I have been spending some personal time with God lately but no worries a new one is right around the corner I can always tell when he wants me to write something kind of like a call or a feeling and it is getting close to happening again. The only question is I wonder what it is, I wonder if it is going to be the kind I love to write or is it suddenly just going to take a different direction as soon as I star writing? Either way I suppose that is just how the spirit works

oldethennew · Sep 11, 2020

HELLO!!!
love it when we realize that we are just not only 'willing' to get READY,
but a light bulb goes off and we suddenly realize that we ARE READY
to do His Will at any cost...

Blain · Sep 11, 2020

oldethennew said:

Indeed, it is not the strong or pure that father is seeking but the willing.

Blain · Sep 13, 2020

Before the Lord I lay in bed for I marvel at his wonder and search the night for his spirit, how I love to sit before thew Lord as I seek the spirit of his voice. In the world are many troubles and many days has my heart been stirring, overtaken is the world in drought lacking the waters of his love. How parched are they yet they know it not, how shriveled is their gardens yet they unaware continue to plow and plant fruitless grain

How my heart aches for them my king for had they tasted your waters for even a sip would they regain life in their bodies for though they are parched they cannot percieve and though they hunger for that which they do not seek they remain lacking nutrition and walk the desert as skeleton.

Upon these things dear father does my heart meditate, in the matters is my spirit for I have tasted and been quenched for I have hungered and been well fed, the gift that you offer my father the world seeks yet does not know it, for they plant and sow in their gardens on perished ground seeking to feed on the fruits of their labor but the garden only produces ash in their mouths.

Look to the sky and see what is to be shown for I see a forest on either side of me, to the left is a forest barren of life and the trees are naked, no life is in them and maggots wander and srprout from it's soil a deathly wind stirs in it's midst sickly and unbreathable, a path is there and is winding and wide I look behind me and see the path at it's beginning from a place of creation. The beginning is wonderful and golden but as it leads to the forest it loses it's splendor and soon falls into decay leading to the forest with no life
A voice says now look to the right and I look and see a forest brimming with light and life of all manner a warm amber sunlight fills the area as a sunset, many streams flow into and out of this forest and the trees have so many leaves and the colors of the leaves change in all different ways things that I have never imagined they could be colors that seem to have a voice of theuir very own each one of every leaf of every tree speaking it's own praise and hidden secret of the king the depth of the hidden place that they speak astound me for though I have sought to know this place of my kings heart never did I fathom the depth and richness of it

A see a path in this forest as well but is narrow and straight and it is made of a crystal like material that is both clear yet shows all who have walked the path as if watching memories of old long since gone away. I see and feel every person as they are shown on the path like I have known them as if something familiar deep inside was faintly always there though I have never met or known them.
The path behind me remains the same and also begins from the place of creation both paths I see now are from the place of creation but along the paths a life of choice seems to make them seperate one that decays and one that remains brilliant

I look again to the forest of life and soak in the view how the warmth of the amber light calls to me as if my body has only known cold and seeks warmth I begin to reach to touch the light as it glistens and as I am about to touch it a hand gently stops mine and I see my beloved next to me gently shaking his head without a word spoken I realize that if I touch the light I would not return to my world for this is an everlasting place a secret home of the cherished and the ones called to his realm

I wish to speak to my king but know that we are to not speak and he then points to the place of creation and I look when I do we are no longer at this place and are back in the world I among a mass of people and the skies suddenly are turning black as terrifying clouds quickly cover the surface of the skies. The sense of dread is in the hearts of every person there fear and cpnfusion sweeps the area and a loud thunder sounds as a ringing so intense that every man and women cowers in fear.

An openin if the dark clouds and a bright flash emits from it blindding and deafening no person can see and no person can move for they are trapped by their terror A mighty spining ring of light appears in the opening filling only the opening in the sky it spins and flashes the glory and power of God it creates a powerful aura in the entire land. The power and glory of God is overwhelming as every man and women cower unable to lift their heads as if gravity was strongly holding them down repentance is in the hearts of many but thewir voices go unheard.

the land is now suddenly a dry wasteland not even a single blade of grass remains the building of the world are crumbled into dust and the air is scorched with heat and dryness toxic in nature. I have my head covered and am on my knees for such a horrific thing must have happened and I weep for the people of the world. My face is covered in the wetness of my tears and a deep horrific cry of grief and sadness shrieks from inside my soul a painful and horrible cry for if only they had listened if only they would have taken his hand when it was offered . A hand gently lifts my face as I see my king lovingly smiling still in my tears I say to him it's not fair why must it be this way? Why must there be such destruction and sorrow?
He quickly and swiftly embraces me in his arms and I weep even harder my anguish for all who are lost and all who must suffer through this destruction is far to much for my soul it feels as if my soul is about to shatter in pieces

But then he says to me to look again and I see the world but no longer the world I had known and all peoples of all nations are gathered in harmony they are singing and dances playing and laughing children and the elderly alike are joyful and blessed, these are the ones who will inherit the earth he says and the destruction of the wicked is only way this can come about. He looks at me and says for I have heard the innocent and the weak cry for to long, and I have seen the wicked and the greedy slay them and control them for to long and I have heard the whispers of the corrupt as they hide in their hearts their intent and speak of honey and praise
The boastful will be silenced they arrogant shall be humbled and they strong will be shattered to pieces for the Lords righteous anger shall come upon them as they drink and marry laugh and lay about in their luxery.

The fire in his eyes are so hot and intense as he says this but aS he looks at me his fire is calm and soothing warm and comforting and says to me when you hear what I have spoken you must write it so that all who have been betaen and weay will know that justice is coming and soon they will be in the forest you saw a place of safe haven and I shall come for them in the blink of an eye and the world will be distraught for they will cry out for salvation and repent but because they had no mercy they shall recieve no mercy since they had no love they will know the emptiness of it but you my children will recieve all these things in full and not because of your works but because you have loved and cherished me and in doing so your hearts were made pure and clean
For salvation is for those who love and will recieve ten fold what they gave.
Worry not about your sins or your walk for I know and see the hearts of those who are mine and in my children is my pride as big and as wide as my glory ytou my precious ones cannot concieve the vastness of my pride in you.

Lafftur · Sep 14, 2020

Hello @Blain,

Absolutely enjoyed your psalm! This is going to be long.... I'll have to post it in 3 parts but, I'll share with you what I could see in what you wrote:

PART 1 OF 3

Blain said:

Upon your bed, your heart and thoughts are meditating on the Lord - you are steadfast with your love for God, seeking Him, seeking His voice, seeking an encounter with Him.

Blain said:

Because you have tasted and know that the Lord is good and satisfies the thirsty and hungry with His Word and Spirit, you can discern how empty the world is and how those that do not seek or know or love God will not find rest or be satisfied in the world.....this is very sad to you....... again, because you know that God is good.

Blain said:

In reply to the sadness in your heart for the lost, the Lord begins to show you a vision of two paths (Life and Death) in a forest.... First, the Lord shows you the Path of Death which is on the left. Since Creation, Mankind has always had choice between Life or Death, hence behind you, you see the path begins from Creation.

In the scriptures, trees are sometimes used metaphorically for "people." For example, in Psalm 1 - the righteous are like a tree planted by the rivers of living water that bring forth their fruit in their season.

Blain said:

Now, the Lord shows you the Path of Life which is on the right. Of course it is beautiful and full of light and life and color. Notice the time of day it is.......sunset.......time is winding down....... the Lords return is very soon.

The description of all the trees and their leaves speaking praises and hidden secrets of the King, reminds me of how the whole Earth shall be filled with the knowledge and glory of God in the New Heaven and Earth.

Blain said:

Jesus Christ is, of course the Path of Life - narrow and straight with crystal like material which is the Holy Spirit. All Believers in Christ are connected - One Spirit, One Body, One Lord, One Savior, One King - we're all One in Christ.

The Path of Life also began from Creation - it was the Tree of Life in the midst of the garden. The Path of Death which also began from Creation was the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil also in the midst of the garden.

What separates the two Paths is our Freedom of Choice - we get to choose which Path and God keeps the paths separate by protecting our freedom of choice.

Blain said:

Your body, soul and spirit yearn for the amber light and want to touch it because you still dwell on Earth yet, you know the light will dispel the cold and give warmth. The Lord stops you because He knows the light not only dispels the cold but can also dispel all darkness and it's not time yet to remove all darkness.

The Lord prefers to remove our darkness a little at a time... by the renewing of our minds with His Word and Spirit - line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little, there a little until we are filled with the knowledge of God and are able to discern His Perfect Will.

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That concludes Part 1....... on to Part 2!

Lafftur · Sep 14, 2020

PART 2 OF 3

Blain said:

You had looked to the sky to see what you previously had seen which was Heaven's View, now the Lord has you to look at the place of Creation which takes you back to the Earth. The Lord wants to show you the "Hour of Darkness" when darkness covers the Earth right before His return.

Blain said:

It's over, the time of grace is no more. Voices of repentance are no longer heard. God's Wrath is now upon the Earth and it's inhabitants.

All must pass through the Fire of God. When God's Voice thunders it is deafening and when His Light flashes it is blinding.

Blain said:

God's judgment only destroys a third of all things but, God's wrath destroys EVERYTHING. What you describe is definitely God's Wrath.

All the wicked have now perished from the Earth and only the righteous are left to inherit it. The Lord will comfort the righteous.....gently and tenderly He will hold us in His arms of love knowing our sorrow because He too sorrows over the lost.

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That concludes Part 2, now the last part........ Part 3.

Lafftur · Sep 15, 2020

PART 3 OF 3

Blain said:

God's cup of wrath has a time frame.......eventually the wicked fill up their cup of iniquity and God pours out His Wrath upon them.

The righteous and the meek will inherit the Earth and the wicked shall perish. Even though God tarry, He will surely return to the Earth and make all things new......His promises are TRUE.

Blain said:

Those that have received Jesus Christ love God and will inherit all the promises of God, even eternal life. God is not mocked, we will reap what we have sown.

God so desires our love for Him. It's so important to enter into love with God. God is motivated by love, we need to also be motivated by love.

Blain said:

God is well pleased with all His children that love Him with a pure heart and put all their trust in Him, not in their own works but, rather walk in forgiveness with themselves and others. Steadfast in their faith in Jesus Christ alone.

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That's it for Part 3.

Thanks again Blain for sharing your beautiful Psalm with us. It's definitely a loving reminder that God has made promises and He will fulfill them.

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Blain · Sep 15, 2020

Lafftur said:

[/QUOTE] I am so overwhelmed I just cannot begion to believe the depth that was in this... I wanted to read what you wrote yesterday but couldn't I was still in a state where I was unable to comprehend anything the vision was so powerful and so real that I was affected physically.

I did however ask God to let you be the one to explain the vision in his truth because I told him out of everyone I have ever met or known you were the one person I always felt his spirit the most in how it is as if everything you say has his spirit and thoughts and love in them.

As I read what you said about my spalm I was in tears and a severe pain inside was again tromping my soul because I was remembering the sadness and pain I experienced in that vision to experience the pain of that sort and to best describe it it is like a mother and father who have lost a child and shriek in agony and sadness from deep within except it was so much worse as if it was multiplied by thousands I didn't even know the soul could survive such pain as that but the depth of the pain came from love just as my signiture says Jesus knew more than anyone love hurts.

But it was as if at that moment he and I were one as if in order to know his heart as I have always desired I also had to know the exact depth of his pain in order to know the depth of his love. I have always said that father was the original parent and how much worse it must be for him losing every lost child than for an actual parent because he has millions who have been lost but I cannot even describe the agony and sorrow and pain even hell itself when I was there didn't compare to the pain and agonoy I mean hell seems like a cakewalk compared to the pain he deals with.

But to willingly go through hell like that out of love.... I finally understand the depth of his love and the love I have sought after and I finally understand why I was given such a tender heart because to know have and experience him in full we have to take on all of him the pain and sadness the light and joy the compassion and connection to the inner being of his soul without a heart of tenderness we would not be able or willing to go through that kind of suffering only a heart that is his and that seeks his could hope to bond with him like that, and to desire to know and have him like that comes at a cost because the phrase becareful what you wish for could never be more true than with him to desire to know his love and to have his heart also means to experience even for a time the level of pain he goes through everyday love is both a blessing and a curse because in order to know true love is also to know true suffering it is the purest and most agonizing thing in existence.

And the things I have written prophesying all that is soon to come the wedding the garden the flood of agfony and destruction and the very very limited time that is left.... I didn't know what I was writing at he time I only let him guide the words as they would fllow I love and adore to have him use me to encourage heal and uplift others but at some point in this year I asked him to use me in this way but then when the poems would take another direction speaking of destruction anger and wrath I was confused and didn't like writing these kind of psalms because I only want to help encourage and give life but I have been called a prophet by some people a seer and prophet and I never liked being called that because I don't think I am worthy of such a thing.

To be a prophet means you speak his heart but you also are far more accountable for what you claim to speak and it infuriayes me when so called prophets claim to speak for him but it is not of him and I fear of ever doing that even once I could never forgive myself if I did I treasure him far to much and so I never wanted to be in a place of speaking for him but he did it all the time regardless.

A friend who used to be on here called Ricky Z would always tell me I was a prophet and I explained to him a vision I had when I saw oil golden oil pouring on my head from heaven never seeing the beginning or end of it but I don't like the feel of poil and so I was uncomfortable having it being poured on my head. He said that there will come a time when he will use me to speak with his anointing but I will not like speaking it he said being a prophet means tpo guide help and encourage but also to speak of warnings wratrh and destruction

But even so what is coming is so close that it is terrifying and will bring healing and life to those who are his but deatyh and sorrow to those who rejected him, it hurts and saddens me but at the same time I am excited and hopeful for him. But I never wanted anything to be about me yet this interna battle inside me has always been so heavy on me I am to afraid to mistrusting of myself even just writing all this seems to be to much about me but I just don't know what to do I keep asking him who and what am I what am I supposed to think and believe what am I supposed to see in myself I just wish that I was something else or someone else all the time I never understand or trust myself but even with all this why does he do this all the time I should be the last person he would use for anything of this sort but it just flows naturally
I don't know what is happening to me I don't understand what is stirring inside and I am so confused

Blain · Sep 27, 2020

The tears of longing stream down my cheeks for I must speak to my Lord my hearts deepest yearning, if only for this one time how I wish to express my hearts love for my king. And so I write a love letter to him hoping that I may express it in full and bring a warm smile upon his precious face, for long have you known the deepest of my heart and long have you known how I have hungered after your own. For had I allowed my heart to speak the depths it would not satisfy with words, for if I were to speak in my soul it would not sate the desire.
My precious Lord how I long to hold you and to be held, how my heart aches and weeps from the distance of these arms,how my spirit sings it's song of such intimacy.

For I chase that which I cannot have, for I hunger for bread that is not yet mine and how I thirst to drink from it's wells. The heart of my king is all I ask for no treasure yes even your kingdom could catch my eyes. I give my crown upon his lap in my dreams I set the table of the finest wines and drinks and prepare a feast for him in my thoughts. Oh I strongly my beloved I wish that you were mine, how severe is my desire to know your heart. Why do you torture me my love for I seek you and yet cannot truly find you.

For as you well know hide and seek is your favorite game but how long must we play? But alas my treasure you cannot hide from me forever for you know how the starving lion always finds it's prey. This is a game that you cannot win for long to have you as my own far to greatly. And I do my king I shall run into your arms knocking you down and we will laugh together and play together forever more, I shall offer you my heart as our wedding ring if you shall give me yours. Such a warm and gentle smile do I have when I ponder these things, sucha warmth that fills my heart as if by the greatest hug.

The tears I shed are not of sadness but of love as if the word alone could express what we share, how beautiful is my beloved and how wonderful is his embrace even if only in my dreams. The hunger for the Lord is my joy but also my curse for the depths of a hunger is painful but keeps me chasing with abandon, the thirst for him is honor but also my sorrow for the parchness unbearable but it makes me eager to drink from his waters in full.
I give you my everything beloved and I offer you all I have gained in your kingdom so long as you are finally mine and do not tarry much longer, even my fleshly arms crave to hold you oh the joy and tears that would be shed if you would let me.

But I will wait for you always watching always seeking always looking to the horizon always listening for your chariot to come to me but I beg of you precious one please be as the wind swift and true.

Blain · Oct 19, 2020

A letter to my father

I write this not as a poem but because I need to express to you father what is in my heart. All my life I always felt alone and I was always hurting inside, I never had anyone who understood me or listened and I did such horrible things growing up that I am so shameful of/ I remember that night when I was in bed feeling more alone and sad than ever and I remember how in my tears I cried out lout for you to please show me your real and that I am not alone in this world, you didn't have to answer and you certainly didn't have to do it in such a supernatural and beautiful way it was the first dream you ever gave me and the beauty of it was so intense I couldn't stop crying

I sometimes wonder if there is a profound significance to the fact in that dream I was standing next to you and if so what could it mean and if I was on your right side was that also important? This didn't bring me to call to you to be saved but it did lead me on the path to you and ever since I met you I have seen how much you have changed me I always saw my pain and my past as it was indeed horrible as a curse but I learned that it was actually a blessing because when I met you something was instilled in me. I was always a sensative and emotional person but you made that increase and not only that made it the way you use me and made it a gift I upon meeting you was instilled with such love that would always surprise people

I remember how I used to love how you would show your love so greatly in me even when I was newly saved and seeing the amazed faces on even other Christians obviously I never took credit because I knew where that love came from and what is more is that you gave me this great joy and desire to inspire and encourage others to build them up and you also made me easily inspired and encouraged and being built up , you gave me a deep level of empathy even able to understand and almost like I feel what others feel you made me the kind of person who remembers fond memories with warmth you made me a person who before hand had no interest in nature and then now I love the beauty of it I treasure the beauty and the value in the little things such as flowers or even the blades of grass I love to imagine gentle streams and wonders of nature that you created

As if all this wasn't enough you and I from the start have always had an adorable child and father like relationship I always imagine me in my true self just a small child running to you and knocking you down and we laugh together we have always had a very close and intimate love and bond you made it almost as if instinct to hear and know your voice and you allow me to see and know the hidden secrets of your heart even if only a little at a time
I know your personaly so well I love and adore who you are if I was only able to fully express all of this if I only was able to let loose everything to your heart directly because words simple cannot even begin to describe it words are like a pathetic method of what and how I feel about you how much I love you how much I treasure you how deeply I care for you and how grateful I am to you my tears I shed are those of deep love such warmth in my heart when I imagine us together

Everyone tells me I need to change everyone tells me I am everything I know in my heart I am not but I am grateful for the sensative emotional and childlike person you made me I am grateful for those who are inspired touched and encouraged by the way you speak through me for as you know when it comes to writing I cannot help but speak my heart. And even in the pain and the saddness I have had to endure and even in the darkest storms in my life when I met you I could always find you I could always talk to you one day father I will be able to finally have you and will finally fully express my heart to you I just hope and pray that I will not be blind to how you see and feel for me because I may be partially blind physically but I am also blind in more than one way and like I told you before I want to see.

Lafftur · Oct 24, 2020

Blain said:

A letter to my father

I write this not as a poem but because I need to express to you father what is in my heart. All my life I always felt alone and I was always hurting inside, I never had anyone who understood me or listened and I did such horrible things growing up that I am so shameful of/ I remember that night when I was in bed feeling more alone and sad than ever and I remember how in my tears I cried out lout for you to please show me your real and that I am not alone in this world, you didn't have to answer and you certainly didn't have to do it in such a supernatural and beautiful way it was the first dream you ever gave me and the beauty of it was so intense I couldn't stop crying

I sometimes wonder if there is a profound significance to the fact in that dream I was standing next to you and if so what could it mean and if I was on your right side was that also important? This didn't bring me to call to you to be saved but it did lead me on the path to you and ever since I met you I have seen how much you have changed me I always saw my pain and my past as it was indeed horrible as a curse but I learned that it was actually a blessing because when I met you something was instilled in me. I was always a sensative and emotional person but you made that increase and not only that made it the way you use me and made it a gift I upon meeting you was instilled with such love that would always surprise people

I remember how I used to love how you would show your love so greatly in me even when I was newly saved and seeing the amazed faces on even other Christians obviously I never took credit because I knew where that love came from and what is more is that you gave me this great joy and desire to inspire and encourage others to build them up and you also made me easily inspired and encouraged and being built up , you gave me a deep level of empathy even able to understand and almost like I feel what others feel you made me the kind of person who remembers fond memories with warmth you made me a person who before hand had no interest in nature and then now I love the beauty of it I treasure the beauty and the value in the little things such as flowers or even the blades of grass I love to imagine gentle streams and wonders of nature that you created

As if all this wasn't enough you and I from the start have always had an adorable child and father like relationship I always imagine me in my true self just a small child running to you and knocking you down and we laugh together we have always had a very close and intimate love and bond you made it almost as if instinct to hear and know your voice and you allow me to see and know the hidden secrets of your heart even if only a little at a time
I know your personaly so well I love and adore who you are if I was only able to fully express all of this if I only was able to let loose everything to your heart directly because words simple cannot even begin to describe it words are like a pathetic method of what and how I feel about you how much I love you how much I treasure you how deeply I care for you and how grateful I am to you my tears I shed are those of deep love such warmth in my heart when I imagine us together

Everyone tells me I need to change everyone tells me I am everything I know in my heart I am not but I am grateful for the sensative emotional and childlike person you made me I am grateful for those who are inspired touched and encouraged by the way you speak through me for as you know when it comes to writing I cannot help but speak my heart. And even in the pain and the saddness I have had to endure and even in the darkest storms in my life when I met you I could always find you I could always talk to you one day father I will be able to finally have you and will finally fully express my heart to you I just hope and pray that I will not be blind to how you see and feel for me because I may be partially blind physically but I am also blind in more than one way and like I told you before I want to see.

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your heart for our Father in Heaven with all of us.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Touch and heal Blain’s eyes...may both his physical and spiritual eyes receive Light and clearly understand what they see, in the ONLY Name that can heal, restore and make whole.....the Name of Yeshua/Jesus Christ, amen.

A thread of Blain's Psalms

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