I was wandering and not following Christ properly at the time.
The first woman I was with for nearly 5 years, and it was distance with long visits (3 months at a time). I gave her a second chance but she seemed to think that standing up for the truth and pointing out a lot of the lies of the progressive movement was "bullying". She made the mistake of listening to and believing a lot of the wrong people. She herself was not a Christian, in fact she believed that 'religion' was all about control.
As for the second, well, I didn't know her well. Just knew we had some interest in talking.
A lot of women just go "oh well it's just a clump of cells, look how scientific I am!" The dehumanization is necessary or their guilt would destroy them and so they are emotionally invested in the idea to hide from the truth.
It's funny because I never seemed to be a good fit for Christian women growing up even in the Church. They'd rather date non believers than someone who tried sincerely to keep to the faith.
As a result I ended up wandering due to the loneliness and felt it wasn't worth it, and thus it left me questioning everything. That was a long on and off wandering that I ended up on from there for decades.
Even during my Mormon stint ohhh hahhaha. I didn't make enough money for them to think about dating me. Just some guy paying his bills, surviving, and doing his best to keep going.
