Part 2
@Aldg19, I wanted to thank you for sharing your heart and soul with me today. I know that for many, I am sure, would struggle to write what you have written. It takes a certain amount of inner strength to reveal these things . . . that, to be honest, the world does not appreciate. How many people appreciate others with being birthed with disabilities? Listen to me . . . silly. You are the one to be schooling me on these matters! But you see what I mean . . . I appreciate you, and more, I believe in you.
I’m sorry to hear that you hate your body. I understand, and I know how much it hurt me to feel that same way. And, it didn’t seem to matter how many times I would try to tell myself, “But David, you have both arms, legs . . . a healthy everything, and there are so many people in the world that are not as fortunate to have your body.” Like I said, I just couldn’t make that turn . . . I could never get over how much I disliked my body and its shape. I was so thin in gradeschool (we were very poor and malnutritioned) that my classmates thought it was a fun game, for them, to see how far around the could wrap their fingers around my wrist. At age twelve, that’s when I began to wish that I were dead. That’s also the year that I had been molested by my boyscout master, and the year that my father refused to baptize me, and the year that my parents finalized their divorce. I had many reason to die because of my destroyed heart. But leading the way in my life was the idea that being blonde haired, blue-eyed, tall and lanky, this caused me to become molested, thinking I would be raped and murdered on the side of Mount Baker in Washington State. I hated being skinny. It was enough for me to wish that I wasn’t alive.
But here’s the thing . . . when the Lord Jesus found me in a similar way that He found you . . . my life changed totally. I mean totally. It has been many years, now, since I have felt the Raw, Almighty Power of God, but that does not matter. The Peace and Love that He gave to me, which happened to be the Indwelling Holy Spirit, was so strong and Powerful, that if it He had placed upon me any more of His Peace and Love, that my body would not have endured it. That’s right . . . God’s Peace and Love contains Power, and so much so, that it could cause the human body to even die. No one can stand before God, and apparently live, without some form of protection, or limited separation . . . our God is the only God there is. I assure you of this.
After that day, how could I ever look up life in the same way? After feeling His Raw, Almighty Power, I had to know Him. I had to know everything about this Power that just changed my entire life and way of thought. I must know who this God is, that placed Himself upon me with such incredible Power, so I began on that amazing journey of finding out who this God is, and what it is in the Bible that can help to explain to me . . . exactly, what had happened to me while in the middle of the Arizona Desert. What I learned blew my mind, and I’ll never hate my body as I once did. So, I hope that I can explain a couple of things to you that might help you to understand what we have been going through, and why.
First, in by reading the Bible, we find that God loves those who are poor, oppressed, and that includes those with physical ailments. In the New Testament, we read of Jesus healing the blind so that they can see, and healing the lame so that they can walk. Did you know that Jesus did not come to heal the physical body? Did you know that these physical healings are not much more than an actual demonstration of what the Lord does with our hearts? When Jesus healed those who were blind, they were given the right to see, perhaps for the very first time. Who can do this other than God? No one. But did you also notice that Jesus said that He does not cast His pearls to the pigs? This is a parallel phrase to another of His phrases where He, Jesus, says “They could not be healed because they did not possess any Faith.” This means that Jesus never healed anyone who did not have Faith. But who grants faith to begin with? Yes . . . Jesus. When you read these New Testament stories, you’ll note how these sinners often seemed to know so much about Christ. That is because the Lord had Purified their Hearts so that they would have the capacity to Believe . . . and they did. Subsequently, these people were healed of their physical ailments.
Don’t believe me? John chapter 9, the entire thing, speaks directly about this, which is that the physical healings of Christ are a reflection of the Spiritual Circumcision that He Himself performs for each believer. If I have shared these verses before, here they are again. Be amazed . . .
Colossians 2:11-15 NLT – “When you came to Christ, you were "circumcised," but not by a physical procedure. Christ performed a spiritual circumcision--the cutting away of your sinful nature. 12 For you were buried with Christ when you were baptized. And with him you were raised to new life because you trusted the mighty power of God, who raised Christ from the dead. 13 You were dead because of your sins and because your sinful nature was not yet cut away. Then God made you alive with Christ, for he forgave all our sins. 14 He canceled the record of the charges against us and took it away by nailing it to the cross. 15 In this way, he disarmed the spiritual rulers and authorities. He shamed them publicly by his victory over them on the cross.”
Think about it: Would Jesus ever heal a body that was destined for Hell? Of course not. Jesus does not squander His pearls upon pigs, and healing a cursed body, cursed with the Adamic Curse, would be utterly fruitless. Jesus does not reward those who hate Him with physical healing. So read all of chapter nine of John, and this will confirm the teaching.
So Jesus did never came to physically heal outside of those few demonstrations. His intention was never to Purify an entire leprous community, or each blind man that existed back in the day. Though the Purpose of Christ is to lift our Hearts of the Sinful Nature, we still remain under at least a portion of the Adamic Curse, for we will all still die. Is this why people pray for a set of brand new eyeballs . . . but never receive them? Or a new set of teeth that do not cause any pain? No one gets new teeth? Or how about that missing arm? Surely, Benny Hinn can wave his money-green hand over me and I’ll get my arm back . . . or leg . . . or lung . . . or.
My friend, you are suffering in this body as a test. We all have to Endure something in this world . . . all of us. Some of us are gay and hating it. Some of us are thieves. Some of us have killed other people. Some of us just can’t control our tongue. Some of us can’t stop sleeping around, going from woman to woman. Some of us are having sex with animals. Look up that word, Endure. It is a most Holy Word, because it is the Lord who gives us this ability to Endure. Here it is:
Philippians 1:29 KJV – “For unto you it is given in the behalf of Christ, not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for his sake . . .”
Do you see it? You are suffering because of your body, so that means you are loved by the Lord! You know this, for He found you, touched and hugged you will in that church, and you’ve never been the same because of it. You are like young Saul on the Damascus Road, that when the Lord touched him, Saul fell to the ground, blinded by the Power of God. You are like young Saul, later to be named the Apostle Paul. You are like him! So now you know that you are Loved by God, for you have felt His Power! And you now know that this body of yours was never intended to be perfectly healed whilst here on earth. We will all agree that the death-rate is the same for us all . . . it’s 100%. We’re all going to die.