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Thanks again. Peter certainly said some amazing things, for his trials and struggles taught him so much, even the lashing that he received from Paul in Galatians likely led him to his wisdom. Peter also wrote later in chapter 5 the following:
1 Peter 5:10 NLT - "In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."
And that is my only hope in this world. I have no confidence in the "church," for even the "church" has mocked and ridiculed me. Nor do I place any hope in humans. There was a time when there was literally no one for me to call upon in my cell phone. I would tell myself, "Is is true? There really isn't anyone for me to call? There is no one?" A few times I went through this process of scrolling through my phone . . . and there was, in fact, not one person to even listen to what I was going through and experiencing. It was the most unbelievable feeling . . . it was beyond horrible.
And while it might sound and seem as though I am complaining, I am not. I am absolutely grateful! Why? Because if I were surrounded by a multitude of friends, family, and an overall amazing support system, would I have turned to God? Would I have ever understood His Holy Scripture as I do today? Not a chance. Who needs a lifesaver? Only those who are drowning . . . and in this life, we all need that lifesaver, thus, in theory, we should all be in that state of drowning and least at some point in our lives.
While I live in agony and though I live each day with a "broken heart," so to speak, my Spirit is 100% strong. I believe in myself and am thankful that the Changes that the Lord has placed within me. Without the Lord being in control of my life, these things would not have happened, nor would I have ever grown to be who I have become today. And who I am today, is essentially the person that I always hoped that I would become when I was a lost sinner with an unCircumcised heart.
I am so thankful!
1 Peter 5:10 NLT - "In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation."
And that is my only hope in this world. I have no confidence in the "church," for even the "church" has mocked and ridiculed me. Nor do I place any hope in humans. There was a time when there was literally no one for me to call upon in my cell phone. I would tell myself, "Is is true? There really isn't anyone for me to call? There is no one?" A few times I went through this process of scrolling through my phone . . . and there was, in fact, not one person to even listen to what I was going through and experiencing. It was the most unbelievable feeling . . . it was beyond horrible.
And while it might sound and seem as though I am complaining, I am not. I am absolutely grateful! Why? Because if I were surrounded by a multitude of friends, family, and an overall amazing support system, would I have turned to God? Would I have ever understood His Holy Scripture as I do today? Not a chance. Who needs a lifesaver? Only those who are drowning . . . and in this life, we all need that lifesaver, thus, in theory, we should all be in that state of drowning and least at some point in our lives.
While I live in agony and though I live each day with a "broken heart," so to speak, my Spirit is 100% strong. I believe in myself and am thankful that the Changes that the Lord has placed within me. Without the Lord being in control of my life, these things would not have happened, nor would I have ever grown to be who I have become today. And who I am today, is essentially the person that I always hoped that I would become when I was a lost sinner with an unCircumcised heart.
I am so thankful!
As the old expression goes, and I don't mean for this to sound the least bit dismissive or to somehow diminish the severity of anything that you're presently going through, "You're preaching to the choir".
In other words, my own life very much mirrors yours, so I know exactly what you're talking about.
I heard a sermon once in which the preacher said that you could have the fastest and strongest horse ever, yet it's basically of no use whatsoever to its owner until the time comes that it is broken or until it comes into submission to its rider.
And so it is with us and God.
If a seed doesn't fall into the ground and die, then it never produces a harvest.
It truly is in losing our lives that we find them.
That's easy to say, but, as you've admitted yourself, and as I'll similarly admit now myself, not as easy to live out.
We truly came into this world naked, and we'll leave with nothing but that which is eternal.
Everything else is vanity and a striving after the wind.
As you said earlier, Paul had a desire to depart and to be with Christ which is far better, yet it was needful that he remain in the flesh for the potential benefit of others.
In my own case, if it wasn't primarily for my children, who I love to pieces, and for the harvest which is perishing in the field, spiritually speaking, then I'd have absolutely nothing holding me to this present life or to this present evil world.
Again, it's somewhat scary to even say that in that this life, to a large degree, is all that we've ever known.
At the same time, however, if we've truly "tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, and have tasted the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come" (Heb. 6:4-5), then this, and this alone, is what sustains us in the midst of our trials and tribulations, and ultimately in the face of death.
Like I said, you're in my prayers.
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