Sometimes like Jesus, all we can do is weep over the misery of humanity, pray for intervention, listen to heartache, and dry the tears of sorrow. You want to say sorry, but it wasn't you who caused the misery; it is as if rooted in the soul speaking to another soul, “I will hurt with you; let's hurt together.”
Your testimony is very moving. albeit Jesus wept only twice in the bible once over Lazarus's family and then over Jerusalem.
In one of the gospels when he was being led to the cross to be crucified, the women seeing him, wept for him and he replied that they should instead weep for themselves as concerning the calamity that was about to befall them.
Emotions are human but is not the norm in Christianity. Faith gives us confidence that even though we walk through the valley of shadow of death, we fear no evil.
Christianity comes with the fruits of the spirit which are love, joy, peace, longsuffering etc. Not momentary but lifelong.
When we fall, we do not stay down but get up and brush ourselves off and keep going forward. The race is won by those who endure to the end.
To endure to the end you have to know God personally, from the heart.